June 25th, 2006.

SIP Day 41:

9.34pm

Woke up at 7.45am. Felt very tired. Slept at around 3am. Again. Stay in town after a disappointing lost at the Tangs Foosball Challenge. Both Iskandar and me made it to the finals, only to lose to a pair which we had no difficulty matching up against during warm-ups. We made it very past very tough first and second rounds. Kind of sad. Miss the chance to get a new watch. *sad*

Had a long window shopping in town. *grins* It was fatal. I saw a couple of shoes from Onisuka Tiger and another couple from Nike. "Argh!" So nice! Still thinking of them now... Shoes are my weakness. When nice shoes caught my eyes, I really must get my hands on them. I got more than 10 pairs. Quite a modest amount but I am sure in the future the number will double or triple, at least. *grins* Kind of difficult for people to give you shoes as presents. But still, my shoes size is 8 and 1/2. *grins*

Received a call from Apple@Orchard. My Ipod Nano was ready for collection! Since than, it was in operational for a day already. *grins*

Watched the first 30 minutes of the match between Germany and Sweden. Saw all the 2 goals. Cool. *grins* Had to go off to watch "She's The Man." Very funny! Nice plot. And very pretty girls. *grins*

Normal working day again. But there was a special event today. All of us went for Siti's engagment party! Cool! Food was nice and it was good to know how the other races do their tradition events. So much pretty cakes! And there is something I must confess. I dozed off in the middle of the ceremony. "Oops!" *grins*

Currently at my Ah Ma's place. Miss her so much. Got to stop her and go and chat with her. *grins* So Good Night Singapore!
Picture of the day is Hadijah and Yan Juan posing in front of Siti's bed, which was full of wonderful looking cakes and other sinful goodies! *grins*

June 23th, 2006.

SIP Day 40:

11.54pm

Quite a day. Today is the 40th day of my attachment! Cool. And tomorrow is pay day. "Haha!"

It was raining freaking heavily this morning! Went to work today. Was quite caught up in work for the better part of the morning. Sylvia "suan" me! She asked me for my autograph. *stick out tongue* Oh please...

My parents came to fetch me for lunch before going for my medical appointment. We went the wrong way! They thought it was at the Singapore General Hospital. *grins* Did a U-Turn. Went to Old Airport to have lunch. The wanton mee was good. And the rojak stall used a digital numbering system. Interesting! Quite tasty actually. *grins*

The moment I stepped into the check up room, I was stunned. The doctor was so young and so pretty! Oh my god. Damm. My type! "Haha!" And I am schedule to see her next week! Cool! *grins* My nose is kind of still hurting. "pain" The doctor used something to burn the blood vessels away. Now I am having a slight burn out at the left nostril. "Eee" *grins*

Went to Apple@Orchard just now. My dad bought a Ipod Video for my brother. There was no stock for the 2GB Ipod Nano. So we only paid the deposit for it. Once it is in, I will need to go down and collect it and pay up the rest of it. So happy! I am having 4 kinds of Ipods. Original Ipod - 3rd Generation, Ipod Shuffle, Ipod Nano and Ipod Video.

Tomorrow I having PF meeting at RP. After which I got to go down for the Tangs Foosball Challenge. Hope Iskandar and me win. *fingers crossed*

Good Night Singapore! People out there, please take care of your health. And those who do not know what an Ipod Nano is like, the Picture of the Day shows it! :)

June 22th, 2006.

SIP Day 39:

11.26pm

A BIG Apology to all my readers. I was quite lazy and tired to post anything. So I will do some recounting...

Last Sunday, I went for PF. Everything was cool. Most of the participants are engaging and on the ball. Had a lot of fun. Had quite a few moments of flashbacks. Thought of times past, when I was a participant. Miss those times...

Monday was my off day. Went to school and stayed for the whole day for the pre-election leadership workshop. There was a overwhelming attendance. The funny thing is that there are people who I expected were not there. *wonders* The things that the people brought up are fresh and what they said struck something inside me... *wonders*

Went to work on Tuesday. But it was a half day as I went to BroadcastAsia2006 for a BR screening at the Panasonic booth. It was so cool! Someone wanted to take a picture with us. Of course Shu An and me obliged. *grins* Hitch a ride in Randy's cute vintage Beetle. So cool! Met Iskandar for foosball practice at Mambo Billiards, Lucky Plaza level 6. Learn a lot new things. I think I like foosball. *grins*

Wednesday I took a MC. Went to see Dr. John as I had a bleed again. He referred me to the polyclinic to be referred to a specialist. Cheaper this way. Going for in this coming friday, which is tomorrow. Went back home and napped for a while. Went out to town with my parents. Bought a Levis 508. It was from the wagon. Cheaper. Only $65.50. And I am fat... *sad*

Today had a busy again. I think I will be very busy for the next 6 weeks. We are entering the last few stages of NDD. There are things that I got to plan and present for the PAssion Card. So on and so fro. Had another practice with Iskandar. I can dribble already. Quite slow. But I am improving. Iskandar is flying. *grins* Quite confident for Saturday. Tomorrow I will be meeting my course manager, Dr. Lim. *wonders*

I got my schedule for BR already. Got 4 days of shooting to be done. Got to arrange my off days already. For all those who still do not know, the second webisode for BR is up! Please visit www.becomingroyston.com to watch it and do join up for all the happenings in the webby.

Picture of the Day is a Looney Toons event I did at Tampines Mall. Hui Leng, Eng Meng, Jabie, Sylvia, Fabian, Yvonne are in the picture. And of course I am the one taking the photo. Take care everyone. Good Night Singapore. Tired. Going to get some winks. *grins*

June 17th, 2006.

11.59pm

Everyone! The long awaited second webisode is uploaded! No words needed! Cannot describe how I am feeling now. Kind of fun. *grins*

Let me talk about today's PF activities. Everything went better than what I had expected. The 5 of us worked fine together. There was a kind of unspoken kind of job allocation. Each of us just naturally stepped up and do the job.

I felt that all the 3 panelist/guest speakers kind of spoke what I needed to heard, needed to affirm myself. They all spoke of their experiences and I felt it was like what I would have said if I am on stage. So alike! *sad* *shakes head*

Good Night Singapore! Picture of the Day: PF people looking lost!

June 16th, 2006.

11.59pm

BR's report was 1-full page! It is crazy! "Haha!" And I get a lot of people who sent SMSes to me, "suaning" me for the sentence, "Xi Yan Xiao Shuai Ge" *argh*

Anyway... Today's PF session was a short one. Had team building games. It was fun! Hope tomorrow we are also going to have so much fun!

Went for DramaTec's annual production, Dreamscape 3.0! It was SO COOL! I love everything! Everything was SO nice! I love the set! I love the plot! I love the music! I love the concept! Most of all, I love the people!!! Everyone was simply great! *grins*

Picture of the Day is of Shahdon and me! I just realised that this is the second picture that we posed together! *grins* Good Night Singapore! I need sleep. Keep falling asleep. *sad*

June 15th, 2006.

11.19pm

All BR supporters! I was informed by Randy, BR's Executive Producer that tomorrow morning's Zao Bao has a article/write-up on BR! So excited! *grins*

First day of PF FA training. Quite cool. Everyone was interesting and it was refreshing to know what others feel. The people were not afraid to speak their mind. Very frank and objective. And there are similar faces from the previous forum! *grins* I will be looking forward to tomorrow!

Had a chat with Terence and Tommy. Had fun! *grins*

Went back for NDD meeting. Quite productive. Quite an amount of things settled. Most of the things look great! *grins*

Overall, my mood quite good. *grins* But quite tired. Had a couple of moments that my head felt numb. *sad* Yes! I will take care! Please do not worry. *grins*

Wondering what to put as the Picture of the Day. Did not take any photos today. *wonders* Let me go n have some food first. Cannot seem to think. *grins*

11.59pm

Found it! Picture of the Day is the Apple tee that Tommy gave me! It is the logo at the back of the tee. Nice right? *grins* Good Night Singapore!

June 14th, 2006.

SIP Day 37:

11.45pm

I cried. Watched a program on TV. Again those kind of sports team who won games after all the troubles and misfortune.

When to see the doctor today about my nose. He said there nothing wrong. Asked me to eat the medicine first. If any more bleeding problems, I will need to go for a blood test.

Do not know why these few days, there are so much work to be done! Simply unbelievable... Anyway, will be going for PF 06, starting for tomorrow.

Good Night Singapore! Picture of the Day: Nice right? Fireworks! Life is like Fireworks. Cherish while you can... Believe it or not. It is true.

June 13th, 2006.

SIP Day 36:

11.41pm

There was hell lot of work today. I started working the moment I stepped into the office and straight until I end the NDD meeting. This whole week is the busy week I am going to have in months I had before. Let me tell you how is it like to have only a slot of free time on Friday, 1 to 6pm. "Haha!"

Saturday:
When to Funan and work for Christina. Woke up late. Had to rush down. Was 10 minutes late. *grins* Had fun. Quite some time since I last did the popcorns. *grins* Rushed back to Tampines. Went to help out at Supernova Camp. YEC's Youth Camp for Service Learning. Everyone there was really great! I believed everyone had fun! It was so good! *grins*

Sunday:
Worked morning shift. Went to Tampines Central CC to put up the photo exhibition stuff. Went to dinner with my parents. After which went to Delong's to play mahjong. Damm. Lost quite a bit. Bet on soccer. Won Mexico's match but lost the Portugal's. *sad*

Monday:
Working from 1 to 10pm. Take time off to go from a focus group discussion from 6.30 to 8.30pm. Luckily it ended early. Rushed back to MPS. Hanged out for a while with Kee Ping they all. Went to meet Ah Boi, Sylvia, Eve and Hui Xin. Loitered a bit. Went to Eve's place. As usual. *grins* Do not know why, but we started to help figure out the tele and karaoke set. In the end, guess what? Sylvia fell asleep again. Yes. It is true. *grins* Soon after, Sylvia sent us home. But Ah Boi was going to have gastric. I was hungry too. So we went to Geylang for dim sum. It was very nice!

Tuesday:
So I had about 4 hours of rest. Went to school for Poly Forum Briefing. Had lunch with Sook and Fishe. Rushed to work. Was surprised that I was not late. *grins* Worked from the minute I stepped in until I end work. Did not even have time to eat. *shakes head*

Going to happen:
Wednesday:
Morning shift. Going out with parents. Maybe going clubbing with Ah Boi. Or maybe just go and chill. *grins*

Thursday:
Poly Forum. FA Training. 7.15am. Ending at 6pm. Rushing back to Tampines. Having NDD program meeting at 8.15pm.

Friday:
Poly Forum. FA Training. 7.15am. Ending at 1pm. Free till 7pm. DramaTec's annual play at 7.30pm.

Sat:
Poly Forum. Pre-Forum. 7.45am. Ending at 6.30pm.

Sunday:
Poly Forum. Pre-Forum. 7.45am. Ending at 6.30pm. Having a focus group discussion at 7.30pm.

So how was that? Busy? *grins* Die-ing! Anyway, I am going to sleep. Good Night Singapore! And Ole! Ole! Picture of the Day: Popcorns! *grins*

June 9th, 2006.

SIP Day 32:

4.05pm

At work. So happy and excited today! Please check out The Straits Times's LIFE! BR is on the frontpage and page 2! Although it is a small article, but it has already went beyond what I thought possible. When I was called to go for the audition, I thought it will be like a small budget short film. But now it had gone that! From the orginal idea until what we have now. During the production period, I had thoughts of this film going bigger but they were just thoughts. From the start, I believe the whole production was base on the passion for doing what each of us love. I went in with the idea of not receive a single cent, and I still do not. *grins* I am serious. Because I love what I am doing. So my friends, I will be very grateful if you all support this production. *grins*

Recently, in the mist of all these excitment, there are quite a few people who asked me the same question, "Will you be running for students' leader elections?" As always, my answer still is, "I do not know." Everyone said even if I said I do not know now, I will definitely run. I think I can list out my reasons for why I am still hesitating, at least for people who read my blog. I remember an entry which I wrote that, once someone become concern about defines as a good blog entry or bad blog entry, their life is not true anymore.

For the past year in SU, I focused a lot on my TP life and happenings and chose to let go some chances. Now I have much more chances. My YEC complains that I am under-performing. I ached to go back to NCC. I missed a lot of chance to work, which Ah Boi scolded me a lot of times for it. My friends, even those in TP, complained that I always not there for them. And some do not even look for me as often anymore. And do you know how long has it been since the last time I saw my Ah Ma? Quite sad about it. Ah Boi told me that, for the past year, he had seen that almost I choose this path, but I am not happy. It is true... But once again, it is my passion and love for TP. For this coming term, the cause for my hesitation are all that are listed above. And more. For YEC, my chairman said if I perform to what he expected of me, he will nominate me for trips with I want to go. Trips such as, NYAA EArthWatch, NYAA Exchanges, NIPPON MARU etc. *grins* And he is a guy with the means to do so. For NCC, I have not been active for almost a year. My CM does not encourage it. He rejected all my LOA applications for NCC. I know he is looking after my studies. I am grateful of it. But because of this, I missed quite a few overseas trips, to places like New Zealand, India, USA, Taiwan, Burnei, Australia etc. I did not even bother to apply to go for some of the places. The outcome was obvious. Now as I am only having one subject next semester and the trips are coming up again, from this year end to the mid of the coming year. My DC ask my just apply. So I am assuming he will recommend me. A lot of other newer batch CLTs had went already. Kyle also wants me to follow him to China this coming semester. People are offering my jobs now. But alas, I am still schooling and I still need to go for National Service. Ah Boi is facing similar situation. Both of us are facing opportunities but... we just cannot make ourself let go. *silly laugh*

So... Basically, it is about performing in other areas, getting up to others expectation of me, going for profiling trips which will be great additions to my CV and portfolio and having more time for family and friends... or... spend my time and energy for SU, either for better or for worse. For many, I believe it will be a very clear decision. But sorry. I am a weird fellow. *grins*

These few days while we talk, Ah Boi and I both agree that the choice of continuing in our way of life, course of work, plans, lies in when we are in NS. Like it or not, everything will be starting afresh. All your current friends, current contacts, everything, will be wipe clean... True?

11.59pm

Had my second nose bleed of the month. Already. Not even passed the mid-month period. Damm. Think I am die-ing. *grins*

Went to support Shaddon at Esplande for his new musical, The New Wave: City of the Gods. Other musical which was Vanity, Victorious, Virtue, Vanquished. Let me tell you! I am damm impressed. Everyone was damm good! Singapore Idol is nothing man. Compared to every single one of the performers, Chinese have a saying, "Smell no smoke". *grins* I am a fan of Shaddon. Since the day I had known him, he never ceased to amaze me. From today's performance, I can see that he had improve tremendously. Congrats!

After the play, as we are walking home, I realised I had my camera with me. Took it out and play around with the settings, and snapped! *grins* Took a few pictures. And I like some of them! Really cool!

Going work at Funan tomorrow for Christina. Afterwards, going to help out to hype the crowd. Hope I can do it! *grins*

By the way, to all, I am currently writing my 21st birthday's wish list. It is not going to look pretty. *grins* But if anyone can buy the items on it, I will consider some kind of repayment! *fingers crossed*

And BR is featured on today's LIFE!. Frontpage and page 2. Although it is small, but I like it!

Picture of the Day: One of the picture I took while I was random snapping! Hope you all like it. Please give some comments! Good Night Singapore!

June 6th, 2006.

SIP Day 29:

11.59pm

There was a BR screening at the Substation today! 2 of Nic's and Randy's works was up. "I'll LIVE A DAY FOR YOU" and of course, "BECOMING ROYSTON". You all can visit www.originasian.com to view the 2 productions. Today's Substation's screening had seen 3 other films by other directors. I was late so I could not make any comments. *grins* But after the screening, from what the audiences commented, it seems that most of them are very interested in wanting to know what happens next. And I know it is definitely not going to disappoint them!

Went to chill with Ah Boi. Talked a lot. He did not study much. But we had fun and caught up on each other news. Interesting... *grins* Anyway Good Night Singapore! Going to get my 4 hours of sleep now. Working the morning shift later. Half day. But going for a interview. *grins* By the way, Congrats to all the people who are having their graduation these few days! *grins* Picture of the Day: Close of me in BR. Ugly right? :(

June 5th, 2006.

SIP Day 28:

11.59pm

The past weekend was quite the breather I needed. Felt rested.

News for all my avid readers!
Becoming Royston, the film production which I was involved with, for the past couple of months, is up! The first webisode is up for viewing now! At www.becomingroyston.com! Please do support! Please spread the word around! Please do post feedback to me! Explore the webby closely! There are links everywhere! So happy! The whole series of webisodes will be uploaded in a spread of 3 months. The photos and other things will change as the webisodes are changed. They will be in line with the current webisodes. Please use the referral list and you will also stand a chance to win a limited edition T-shirt! *grins*

P.S I will only be appearing for 2 seconds for this first webisode. But stay tune for more! *grins*

Going to get some more rest now! Good Night Singapore! And For those who had already supported me or going to, a BIG THANK YOU to you out there!

Picture of the Day is a shot of Shu An and me! Shu An is the lead actress of this production! Pretty? *grins*

June 1st, 2006.

SIP Day 26:

11.59pm

These couple of days were very full of work for me. Everyone in the office needs help. I had been helping out where ever I could. *busy*

Today I went back to school. Went back for a Poly Forum briefing. Yes! I am in, as a facilitator! Which means I will need to work more, as I will be asking for more leave from work. *sad*

Had YEC meeting today. I had been told by so many people that I am under performing. "Ok everyone! I will work hard for YEC now! Yes! I will!" Some of us were talking and have drinks after the meeting. Talked about NYAA. Yes. I will need to complete my NYAA Gold too. I am going to work hard from now on. Can someone do it with me? If not I will be lonely... *grins*

And I am going HQ NCC tomorrow! I miss NCC! I am going to look-see at the Spec Course! Hopefully I can help out too! So going to get some sleep now. Good Night Singapore! Picture of the Day is one of my 44th batch CLT course, some of the Platoon One people attending Maz's 45th CLT Course POP! Can you see me? *grins*

May 30th, 2006.

SIP Day 24:

11.59pm

Was reading Life! today. I love reading the "biteintoit" column. There was a quote by writer Douglas Coupland on why he does not blog. 'You begin reclassifying your life into "that will make a good blog entry" or "that won't make a good blog entry". Suddenly your life isn't your life anymore' I agree fully with what he said. It is very true. When a particular blog becomes well known or is regularly been read by people, the blogger will be cautious of what he/she is writing or even write things on purpose. That is why I do not read blogs. Actually I am a person who gets effects by what others think of me. I will try very hard to maintain an image in front of people or change what they think of me.

Spend the whole day in the office revamping the powerpoint slides on the highlights of the CC. Finally done! Quite proud of it! It is quite nice! If the machine with runs the slides is not so low-end, I would like very much to do it up even nicer. If I can use Keynote to design it, woah! It would be better! *grins*

Anyway working morning shift tomorrow. So going to get some sleep now. Good Night Singapore! Picture of the Day is one of me with Samantha dressing up as Cinderella for CCN Day! One photo is $1! *pouts*

May 27th to 29th, 2006.

May 27th, 2006.

SIP Day 21:

2.48pm

Raining heavily. A lot of things had happened over the past few days. I am die-ing. Again. Very terribly tired and most probably sick. Today woke up at 5.30am to help out for the World Human Resource Congress. Information given very late. Finally got people to work. Have not been sleeping more then 12 hours in total for the past 3 days. This morning, I had my second nose bleed for the month. Not bad right? Luckily the month is ending, therefore the count can restart. *silly grins*sad*

This year's CCA Awards was quite smooth. There are quite a few new faces. And quite a few people got at least double awards. Congrats to all who award recipients! After looking at the impressive resume which the higher award winners, all I could do was to applaud louder. *grins* Truly impressive.

After the ceremony, our bunch of old "Ka Kees" went on a crazy drive around with no place in mind to go. Finally after much petroleum wasted, we arrived at Eve's place. Although everyone was tired and having a terrible sore throat, we had a karaoke session. "Haha!" Imagine having 5 Ah Dus around. *grins* Spend the night at Eve's. Had breakfast in the morning and went to polyclinic to see doctor with Eng Meng and Fayanne. Everyone is practically very sick.

I am finding it very difficult to control my fingers and eyes at the moment...

Went to school for CCN Day. Suppose to go for a NASA talk at NYP. But I know if I am to sit down, I will immediately fall asleep. Also supposed to go for work at the new T3. But I also knew that I will K.O. Walked around. TP is getting more happening as the years grow. Although there was not any super happening booth. *grins* Spent some time with Kyle, together with Guang. Talked. He shared some funny clips and videos with us. Cool.

Having CC events today and tomorrow. My mummy's birthday tomorrow. Hope to leave early from work.

Thank you everyone out there who express your concerns. Really touched. Thanks. Going to try and get some rest now. But in office, hoping they let me. *grins*

3.36pm

If you lack of sleep or rest, you will tend to fart a lot. Do not know if it is true. But I do fart a lot. *grins*

9.05pm

Mass sending photos from my phone to my lappy. Need to clear the memory card. Just settled down from my first passion card event. The result was not too bad. Done up couple of templates for the project. Going to do up a sort of report on it, so that I can keep a record of the happenings.

May 28th, 2006.

SIP Day 22:

12.54pm

Fell asleep on the sofa. Again. *grins* Woke up in the morning and found myself on bed. I think I changed and crawled on bed in the semi conscious state. "Haha!" Could not post last night entry. Guess I am too tired. But I think I got enough rest from the K.O. last night. *grins*

3.33pm

Feeling sleepy. Went to Mr Aziz's place for lunch. His grandchild's 1st birthday. Quite happening. People come and go as if on a roster. One group leaves when another comes. Food was nice. Everyone was funny. *grins*

May 29th, 2006.

SIP Day 23:

6.00am

Just reached home from Delong's place. Quite tired. Going to get some rest now. The MAEC event was very happening. I liked! Everything was so nice, so happening. The people can really sing. And the aunties and uncles really went up to the front and dance! *grins*

11.31pm

Did not manage to get chance to upload my past entries. Either I just pass out when I reach home or could not get internet access. *grins* By the way, Kino is having a 20% discount storewide from June 3 to June 24! So hurry! "Haha!"

YEC's SuperNova Camp is coming up soon. Hope everything goes well.

News in TP:
Lots of events are up and coming. Mount Ophir trip, Elections, Poly Forum 2006, S2006 etc. After the elections, all the fun will start then. *grins* TP is really very happening.

Anyway, watching TV now. Lost inspiration of what I wanted to write. "Haha!" Good Night Singapore! today we have a scandalous Picture of the Day. Ah Boi and Sylvia. *grins* Nice right? "Haha!"

May 23th, 2006.

SIP Day 18:

11.59pm

Minus the offs and weekends. I have been on SIP for 18 days. These past 18 days seems the longest in my life. There were a lot times in the past when I am saying this. This is just one of those times. These past 18 days had been a mixture of learning, rantings and many other things. I got to know a lot more people. Learn a lot more things. Done things that I normally give others to do. *grins* Like mailing? Like stamping envelops? "Haha!" I was quite tight about it for a while. But after a while I guess I am over it. It is kind of fun too. I guess I am getting all this because I am on SIP, I am suppose to learn. Because of my age, everyone have to go through these kind of things. Because I am getting paid. Because of a lot of stuff, I guess.

I am really sorry for not turning up for work on Sunday. Having Yan Juan to have to work alone. Should not have over worked myself.

Went to MPS yesterday, as always, it had been very interesting. I really enjoy the sessions. I get to know new things everytime. The volunteers there give people hope. Went to the dentist too. Found out I had 5 decays. *sads* Had 3 fillings. Need to go back for 2 more. Costed me a bomb. $170. "Ouch"

I had a busy day today. Went through all the lists of sponsor and "digged" through the phone directory, compiled all their contact numbers. Went for FLC meeting. FLC = Family Life Champions. Earlier today, Bernice SMSed me, asking me to help to facilitate the "dinner and dance" portion of the youth camp. *wonders* Me? I cannot do it man. For real!

Anyway, I think I know why I am not contributing for YEC. Never mind. I will talk to Kee Ping about it. No worries. Good Night Singapore! Please get some rest. do not be like me, over worked. Picture of the day is my first pose for the set of photo which Hui Leng taken for me, for the elections last year. *grins*

May 21th, 2006.

11.59m

Last night, I vomited. Felt very terrible. This is the thing about falling sleep once in a long time. Everything just come back at you. Yesterday, I asked the doctor, if it was because I was not getting enough rest. "Was 4 hours of rest enough?" Guess what? She smiled and said, "NOPE!" Ok! *grins* I got about 6 kinds of medicine. That is hell of a lot. But I am that kind that will eat my medicine. So people, do not worry.

Went to Zouk just now. Yes. I went to Zouk when I am still sick. But I had fun! Camp Comedy 2006. Organised by Fly Entertainment. Broadway Beng! He was so cool! So funny! Master of Hokkien songs! "Haha!" Thanks Elyn! For getting me the tickets. And Felicia! Hope we do not meet 3 months later!

Anyway, good night Singapore! *grins* Today's picture of the day, Shu An and me! She is my lead actress! Pretty right? Sleep tight!

May 19th, 2006.

SIP Day 16:

10.24am

Although I had afternoon shift for the past whole week, today I am taking the morning shift as I want to go back to school to take some stuff from Kyle and go and watch Production Crew conduct their training. Quite curious about this new main committee.

The night before, I had a D&D main committee appreciation dinner at Fish & Co. As usual, most of us were late. *grins* And as usual, poor Pamela waited 2 hours for everything to start. "Sorry Pamela! And to everyone else who was early than me." "Haha!" Everyone ordered their fill. We had a total of 3 sets of Fish & Chips, 2 sets of Seafood Platter for One, 2 sets of Seasonal Sambal, 1 set of Salmon with Cajun, 1 set of Swordfish Collar, 1 set of Teriyaki Salmon, 1 set of Grilled Calamari, 1 set of Fried Calamari, 2 glasses of Pink Passion, 2 mugs of Sharkie Freeze, 1 mug of Jungle Freeze and 1 mug of Chockie Junkie! And a hell lot of sauces! I counted we had more than 30 little cups of sauces! The night everyone had hell lot of food! *grins* And guess what. Everything was a whooping $244.65. I kept the receipt. I am thinking of keeping and compile everything into an album for myself to look back at the old times.

Actually I already wanted to do up a photo album of my years in TP. I am quite sure it will be a freaking thick book! *grins* I suppose I have more pictures of myself in TP than the past 10 years of uniform education. I do not think I develop out all the photos. I will need to think of a way or a theme to form up my album. "Who wants to help? It will be fun! I think... Haha!" *grins*

Last night, office had a farewell dinner for Vinson and Gregory and welcome dinner for Ming Jie and me. We had a birthday lady yesterday. Masat's! The mango cake for her was wonderful. Absolutely delicious. Hadijah have good taste. *grins* After which I went to attend Zone 4's monthly meeting. Quite interesting. You will get to know how people think, how the residents actions affect the decision-making. Or how the committee decision affect the residents. You may think the RCs are group of old, bickering aunties and uncles. That was what I thought too. But after I got involved in all this, I now know that they are the people who build your gardens, playgrounds, games courts, enforce regular maintenance, catch rowdy gangsters, eliminate pest problems, organise events for the blocks that are under their charge. They are volunteers, but they need to do a lot of work. Finance statements? Minutes of meetings? *grins*

"Argh" I could not go to Wala Wala. BR's whole team was there. But my meeting ended so late. And it was so far. "Sorry guys! Next time kopi together ba!" Randy and Terence will be going Japan. Today actually. "Bon Voyage guys! Take Care! Have fun!" BR's team is so cool! *grins*

The minute I come into office, Mdm Pang asked me "Kai Xin ma?" *grins* She said because I look moody. Not waked up yet. *grins* Small wonder. I slept at 2 plus. *grins* Mdm Pang made coffee for me and offered me food. Bread and biscuts. "Haha!" Now I understand how come the office termed her as a motherly figure. "Thanks Mdm Pang!" I got a few things to do but I do not think I need the whole day to do. *grins* My brother will be coming to date me for lunch. "Hehe!"

11.59pm

Did some paperwork and admin work. Went to Production Crew workshop today. Not too bad. All the new faces expressed their interest. It is very encouraging to see the next generation coming up. *grins* Had a talk with Sylvia. A long talk. *grins* Quite cool. They are going Bangkok tomorrow. Sylvia, Eve, Fayanne, Cynthia and Eng Meng. A thorn among the roses. "Haha!" Both Sylvia and Eng Meng are sick! Please take care of yourselves. And again Bon Voyage! Have fun! Enjoy! This is the second time I am wishing people a good journey, in this entry alone.

I am getting an addition hard disc drive, I am nearly out! And I will be broke. *grins* Thanks Samantha!

I am totally booked for the next 2 weeks. "Aww" I am going to Poly Forum Review. At Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Going to meet all the old friends! *happy*grins*

I forgot what I am going to blog. So... Good Night Singapore! "Haha!" Picture of the Day: Nicholas Chee. My BR Production's Director! He really look like one right? *grins*

May 16th, 2006.

SIP Day 14:

12.54pm

Late for work today. Anyway I will work my full shift today. Feeling quite sad today. First thing that catch my eye after my brother woke me up was the letter on my laptop. It was the CCA Awards notification letter. I got a ill omen since yesterday night, when Wei Qi SMS me, asking if I am going to take leave off SIP to attend it. I only got the CCA Merit Award (Leadership). Wondering who got the Student Leader of the Year. Being born in the Year of the Tiger, it had also been a very competitive environment. In the form of non-acdemic performances, such as CCAs, there are always very good candidates. This year, it is very obvious that all the awards are closely contended. So I guess I could have done more. I just did not do enough. What a way to end my CCA career in TP. I got a CCA Merit Award (Arts) and Production Crew got the Arts Group of the Year, with me as the Vice-President. To me, it is a sign of me under performing, a sort of demotion. Listening to "emo" music again. Since the new school term had started, everyone had been asking me to run for election for Union again. *bitter laugh* How ironic. Why me? Since everyone says I am the ideal choice, but why? I am suppose to graduate. *bitter laugh* My heart ask me to go for it, but my head tells me not too. When I stepped into Union, I had a dream. Now my term is ending without the dream being fulfilled. I want to bring Union up there. That is what my heart is telling me to go and do. But my brain tells me, to get out to it. I am like a past tense, a guy who is already not there. Wendy, Ivan, Randy, Nicholas and many other people had told me that I will need to get out of there someday. I guess this maybe that day. *bitter smile* There are a few songs I am listening to now. "Cry" by James Blunt. "一生最爱的人" by 伍佰 . "海濶天空" by Beyond. "手放开" by Lee Sheng Jie. They are looping and looping, over and over again. Hope everyone who is feeling down now, get over it soon. I think I will. There are better things to do than to cry over spilled milk. This is life. Slow down and you are obsolete. At least for the rat race... Going for lunch now. Maybe getting bubble tea later. *bitter smile*

4.07pm

Bought 1 cup of bubble tea. Chocolate Ice-blended. Kee Ping bought another for me. *grins* Called Sharon just now. Had a gut feeling about it. True enough. She got the award. *grins* Congrats. Half of my mind, the logical side knew she would have got it. Maybe just could not make myself to believe it. *silly grins* Kind of feeling better. At least she is obvious more of a high-flyer compared to me. At least I did not lose it to some one that I do not respect. Had once myself a couple of times if joining Union was the wrong choice. But I know that I should not regret any decision that I made. It was just a question. Told myself that it would be irresponsible to just run away for overseas trip and leave everyone behind. I know it to be true. I could not make myself to run away to Switzerland and left D&D. I could not leave FOC for Yunan. Sorry Kyle. Thank you for the opporunities. But I know my responsibilities. I know where I am needed most. At least I know I had done all I can... Btw, I am going back school tomorrow. *grins*

7.43pm

Hadijah talked bad about me. *angry* *grins* Kidding.

11.59pm

Good Night Singapore. Picture of the day is Ken. Our production's Director of Photography. Handsome right? *grins*

May 15th, 2006.

SIP Day 13:

3.25pm

Do not know the reason. Suddenly felt a sense of profound sadness. Doing my D&D project report in the office. A lot of work stuck. Listening to "emo" music again. Brought back a lot of memories. Maybe this is why I am feeling this way. BR completed filming yesterday. For my part, there are still quite a number of voice overs I need to do. But the bulk of the filming is done. Ready for editing. Everyone of the cast and crew hope this will be something big. *fingers crossed* Looking through photos and look at my schedule. I am wondering if everything will move faster and faster, until there will not be time to even look at the photos. What will happen? Everyday there are things happening. Everyday I have something to do. Or at least something new to do. I guess this is really the thing. The thing of growing up. As you grow older, everything double, triple and so on so fro. It is a race to be faster and better than everyone else. To get out of the rat race. Sitting in a CC office, I can feel the bliss of working in an environment like that. But I guess I like it otherwise. I cannot take it to be in the rat race forever. That is why I am doing so many things now. At my age, who can have a total of 1000 phone numbers in their handphones. And they are not like friends numbers. They are like numbers of people and companies that can be an opportunity. Let me quote an example, in the filming industry, out of a cohort of about 180 students who graduates, only 20 works in the corporate world and out of the 20, only 1 will make it. Ironic right? Where do the other 160 people go to? You will be surprise how many people work in places that they are not working in the field that they want to, or even studied in. As I get to know more people, greater is my understanding. This actually fueled my desire to get out of the rat race and do what I want, do what I like. But for now, all this make me feel very old, or at least weary, wore out. Too weary for my age...

4.39pm

Hadijah asked me how come I want to do things "big big". Something came across my mind. An analogy. "If you throw a small stone, the ripple will only be this small. But if you use a big rock instead, the ripple will be very much bigger." True?

7.05pm

Just finish my D&D project report. I bet it heard been a long time since any of you heard about D&D in my blog right? *grins* There are some problems with finances. But no worries. Nothing that my main committee cannot sort out. Just finished the version 1. Definitely need refinement. Kyle asked me for pictures of D&D, saying it is for SU, for CCA Awards. *Scratch head* Anyway, will need it for myself anyway. Meeting Jo tomorrow to get them. I haven seen my parents for a long long time. Around 3 weeks. When I am home, they are asleep. When I am awake, they will either be still asleep or went out for work already. *sads* Never mind. I am meeting them for dinner later! Belated Mothers' Day! *grins*

11.59pm

Had a very nice dinner. *grins* Going to have some much needed rest. Good Night Singapore!

May 9th, 2006.

SIP Day 9:

4.57pm

I am writing this entry using paper and pencil before I type it out and upload to blogspot. I was thinking, since I have the time why not use this chance to brush up my handwriting? Currently, it looks like a primary school kid practicing on the jotter book. I need to practice more. Seriously, if a doctor sees my handwriting, it would have make him/her proud.

Having 4 meeting for 4 consecutive nights. These few days I had been thinking. Since my Hong Kong trip and before that since my Korea trip, I have not had a good or even proper rest. I really ought to give myself a long break.

I was busy with a lot of things, since my D&D ended, followed closely I had FOC week, Week Zero, SIP week 1, SIP week 2 with the GE and BR Production. Now into the third week of SIP, i am having tons of meetings and even working on Vesak Day. All these while, there are still a lot of other unseen stuff that need to be done. Nearly everyday I get friends from all over who smsed me and ask me out. Really wish to go out with them, but sadly, I cannot. I think will reallly die young. *grins*fingers crossed* Because not long ago, I was told by Ah Boi that, people are more prone to stroke if lack of sleep. Still cannot plan a date to have a D&D "Thank You" dinner. Looking at having a massage trip with Ah Boi but schedule too tight. Every night when I laid down on the bed, I try to relax, the aching will get unbearable and my body will automatically restrain and I have to slowly let go of the tension. I really should relax. Someday...

Saw Sybill twice today! Once when I was on the bus, she was on the bustop. She was also at the CC for tution. *grins* Picture of the day, the multiple face of Snowden. "Haha!" Good Night Singapore!