April 29th, 2006.

BR Production Day 1:

Reported at Changi Jetty, 8am. *Yawn* Was quite impressed by the amount of equipment. Long time since I had been to Ubin. Changed so much. Last time, when I in secondary school, been to Ubin like it was my second home. Because of training for orientation for NCC. Now it is like quite different, yet familiar.

The first attack came immediately after we reached our first area. Mosquitoes! "Argh!" Totally got whacked by them! *grins* Had a opening prayer ceremony for good weather. Even had a roast pig! Cool right? A lot time spend on transporting the stuff around and setting up. My first scene was to get beaten up. How sad! But it was quite cool. All in all, everything was fabulous! The scenery, the nature, and especially the production! The people are real cool. Everyone knows what to do. Very tiring today. Hope everything will completed in seven days, as scheduled. But I am starting to miss it already.

Acting is my passion. Something which I had found out in my year one. I really love what I am doing. There are similarities and differences in both theatre and filming. I really love doing everything part of it. No matter what are the scene requirements, how many times I need to do the scene, I am always ready to do it.

Tomorrow going back to Ubin again. Cool. Mosquitoes Feeding Time again! Picture of the day is a very nice scenery picture which I took while exploring my camera abilities. Terence, our scriptwriter, was giving me a few tips on photography. Had thought of a lot of things to write but too tired now. *grins* Anyway, all my producers told me to have rest. So I am go now. Good Night Singapore. Hope the production will be a success!

April 28th, 2006.

SIP Day 5:

Again wanted to blog yesterday. Too tired. *grins* Had a very tiring day yesterday. Went to help put up poster and billboards for PAP! "Haha!" Quite cool. First time I seen hundreds of people gathered at the basketball court, after a short speech by Mr Mah, all went to the Nomination Centre. A sea of white. *grins*

Felt like a Koala Bear yesterday. Hugged nearly 20 plus lamp posts. *grins* Had very nice view while hugging them. "Haha!" Spent the whole afternoon doing that.

When to BR meeting again. It was fitting day! Cool! My costumes are so cool. Very me. The costumes for the rest of the cast are all very nice! Was falling asleep at first. After fitting my first costumes, I am very much awake. But after some of rest left, some of the energy just drain out of me. Yawning all the way home. Guess I am really tired. *grins* Got my production dates already. This coming saturday, sunday, monday (public holiday! argh!), wednesday (hope I got time to go for CCC meeting), thursday (hope I got time to go for YEC meeting), saturday and sunday. "Argh!" Two weekends burned! "Haha!" Nevermind. It is going to be fun! Cause this weekend going to stay over at Pulau Ubin for some scenes. Cool right? *grins*

Today I had finish my part of the sponsorship for NDD. The first part at least. Still got two important proposal to rush out. At the first draft by next week. So I am really on a tight schedule. Kyle called me to go for the BOG meeting in two weeks' time. *sad* So many things to do, so little time." Going for a block party later. RC Zone 7. Hope it will be fun. After that, going for Yaoda's Birthday party. *Yawn* So tiring.

Finally back from Yaoda's bday bash. it was a great success! So many people turned up. I think it is because Yaoda had given all of us so much laughs and smiles that everyone is willing to give it back as well. There were cheers and much laughters. It was so TPSU! Eddie was nearly stripped of his pants, for a porn shot. "Haha!" Yaoda was nearly down with all the alcohol in his body. Everything was smashing. Hope my 21st can be as happening as his!

Tomorrow again to be in Ubin. It will be the first day of the filming. So excited. Could not sleep. Hope it does not rain. *fingers crossed* Anyway Good Night Singapore. And three cheers for Yaoda once again! May most your wishes come true. Life cannot be too perfect right? *grins* The pictures of the day will be the March of the Whites and me in one of my costumes. Cool right? See all of you when I am back in Sunday night. Miss me! :)

April 25th, 2006.

SIP Day 3:

Wanted to blog yesterday. But fell asleep on the sofa. Again. *grins* I really must kick the habit. Today went to school for lunch again. Went to work. Went out with some of my colleagues for a site rackey, for an event on Sunday. Quite cool! Had fun in the car. "Haha!"

Had my first NDD (National Day Dinner) Meeting. Quite serious. *grins*

Everyone is getting ready for the GE (General Elections) tomorrow. I will be helping out too! Cool right? Tomorrow Workers' Party will be at Ngee Ann Secondary! It is going to be interesting. First time involve in such an event. Like I said to Ah Boi recently, "I learn something new everyday!" *grins*

April 24th, 2006.

SIP Day 2:

The time now is 9.29am. Just came in for the past 15mins. Today is going to be fun. I hope. *grins* "Expect something new each day, it makes you younger." Cool right? Going to lunch with my freshies later. *grins*

Just came back from lunch. Went back to school to collect my cheques and had a noisy lunch with my freshies. Quite cool.

More work for NDD. Now asked to do sponsorship. "Val! I need you! Haha!"

April 24th, 2006.

11.59pm

Quite pissed today. I really cannot go on like this. One moment I was asleep and the next I was receiving calls, the whole morning from 10am onwards. Just because someone could not be found, my number was naturally the next everyone called. Why? I had to jump out of bed and handle people who are confused, pissed and angry, all the way through the time I change my clothes, brush my teeth and the only time in the morning which I was free was during the time I was bathing. I was so pissed. This is not the first time something like that happened to people around me. I am now having my SIP. I cannot be also there. Although I want to, but remembering what Wendy told me, I must move on. Now I can see myself doing something else which is similar but on a bigger scale of what I am doing now. Instead of the Union and TP, I can help the community. Which is the next step up. I really hope people can handle things and hold their fort themselves.

Anyway, during the time I was in TP today, the Plaza area was bustling with activities. Today was the start of the Sporting Culture. The recuritment drive for all the sports groups in school. Saw a lot of freshies today. Everyone looked cool, looked happy and some looked lost. "Haha!"

SIP Day 1:

Fun and interesting. As usual, orientation around the place and briefing on the job scope. Primary project is to assist in Tampines GRC's National Day Dinner'06. Secondary case is to sell as many Passion Cards as possible. These are not problems. They are in my element. *grins* It is the people around who I need time to adapt. Most of the people are big shots from here and there. They are all great addition to my contacts. A sudden boast for my network. Went through the notes for my two cases. Looks ok.

Went to the Meet the People Session (MPS) today. Met Simon Leong. A marketing manager at Singapore Turf Club. Quite a funny guy. Meet a few different groups of people with different cases. Ranging from problems with ICA to HDB to entry to schools etc. Very interesting. I got to know more things in the two hours than many hours in school. In future any of the things I know happening, I will know how to handle them. I always loved knowledge. To me, Knowledge = Power.

There are so many things for me to do for this SIP. So many meetings. How fun! *grins* Anyway Good Night Singapore! Reporting for work at 9am in the morning. Please do not miss me! Take care. Picture of the day is another picture of Spydra at Sentosa. Just that with a crazy me. "Haha!"

April 23th, 2006.

11.59pm

Today's outing was very happening. Spydra alone counted past fifty people. "Haha!" So you can image how many people were there from TPSU FOW/FOC!

On the way to Harbourfront, a thought struck me. As the bus travelled through CBD, I notice the names of the buildings. Some of them sounds very cool for thirty years back. *grins*

Anyway as usual, it is always difficult to move in a big group. But it was fun! And frightening. "Haha!" Imagine fifty people finding place to eat. Or rather "FEED." *grins* We played games, cheered in bus, creating a nuisance of ourselves and more importantly had fun. I hope everyone had enjoyed themselves as I had. "Freshies, don't be sad. Spydra can organise outings and chalets."

Actually, throughout these two days, I am very sad and emotional. Because one of my good friends died. No. I am not joking. He was just 27 years old. He was going to get married. He changed so much for this girl. He just got a full time job. What I was told was he fell down in the toilet and just died. The autopsy stated that he died of heart attack. "What?! Why do the upper powers play with us?" He was just 27! I am suddenly overwhelmed by a sadness and felt that the human life is "oh-so-fragile." "Jali Boi, you are going to be miss..."

Picture of the day is a picture with most of the Spydra in it. The others were all around. *grins* Good Night Singapore. And Good Bye Jali Boi.

April 22th, 2006.

10.37pm

Again totally shagged out! Slept till 4 plus. The whole of yesterday was quite pack. Again. What is not pack in my life nowadays? *wonders* Stayed over in school. Did not sleep much. Totally wasted. Despite all the same old problems, I had fun yesterday. Regatta and Jam & Hop were a total whopper! Especially Jam & Hop! For all those who do not know, Ah Boi is the designer for the lighting and the staging. Cool right? I am so proud of him. I really think we got a future in this business. *grins*

Jam & Hop was a killer! Once in the Spydra's circle, you can come out!!! "Haha!" I was real fun. As usual, we went to CPF after that. I would like to thank all my officials. "Thank You!"

Just signed in to MSN just now. And as usual, multiple windows popped out, "Ti Dong! Ti Dong! Ti Dong!" So many people to talk to, so little time. So many questions, so little time. Till now still blogging and chatting (11.57pm). *grins*

Was talking to Biskot. And I wish to tell all my GLs that I am really going to miss every single one of them! During the last day of FOC, when almost all of my GLs cried, I was really lost and really wanted to do something for them. But did not know how. All of them, really mean so much to me. All of them gave me one of the best time of my life and taught me winning is not everything.

Going Sentosa tomorrow. FOW/FOC outing. It is going to be fun! SIP going to be start on Monday. Wonder how my life is going to be for the next four months.

Picture of the day is Fazly, me and Derry. Year 2, Year 4 and Graduate. "Haha!" *sigh* Going to miss those days. Good night Singapore!

April 19th, 2006.

12.36pm

Totally shagged out yesterday. Wanted to blog. But simply cogged out. *grins* Had a hectic night yesterday. Ya. Only the night. Went to school for the afternoon. And slack around. Talk about Jam & Hop with the rest. After which the hectic-ness starts with an interview with my SIP company, PA. Yes! PA. Peoples' Association. Actually it is quite cool. "Haha!" That was at 4pm. After that I rushed for Spydra's debrief. Was late for like 30mins. But I was not the latest. *roll eyes*grins* Soon after, around 7pm, I took a cab and rush to katong. Remember that production I was talking about? Ya. Had a production meeting. Could not rush back for Spydra's dinner. Heard a lot of people was looking for me. "Sorry!" Anyway, I was home at about 1am. Quite enjoyed the whole process.

The production is quite on track. I saw more casts involved and there was the poster! It is so cool to see my name there! More of the production can be find out from, becomingroyston.blogspot.com. or from, www.becomingroyston.com.

Going to school now! Catch ya all later! *winks*

12.55pm

Ah Guang just SMS me, saying he just woke up. *roll eyes*

April 20th, 2006.

1.30am

Back. The usual thing. In school and busy my ass off. Meeting. Paperwork. Etc. Went to town and relax. Watch Eight Below. Quite cool. Nice movie actually. I love the dogs! I was so sad when the dogs were left alone and they had to handle things themselves. Nevermind. Should not tell you all too much. *grins* Anyway, going to sleep already. Going school tomorrow. Again. *roll eyes* Going to have some rest now. Good Night Singapore!

April 17th, 2006.

3.27pm

Slept till 3plus pm. Till now still feeling quite shag. Had a good look at the mirror just now, my eyes still looks terrible. *grins* For the past 6 days, I really really had fun and had an amazing experience. Do not know why, I cried. During each year's FOC, we will have the graduates to come out and say some stuff. I thought I would not cry, as I am not graduating. At first I was not feeling. But I do not know why, after a while, after some of the others have spoken, the tears just came. Tried to hold back my tears but I failed. Could not remember much about what I had said. But a lot of people say it was very touching. And my GLs told me the "tap started flowing" after my third word, or something like that. "Haha!" And yesterday, I had the most amount of hugs in a single day! *grins* Very heart warming to know that there are so many people are concern about me. I thought it was quite ugly to cry in front of so many people. But my GLs told me, I was just a "man of real emotions". *grins*

Through the six days of FOW/FOC AY05/06, I had learnt a few things. Sometimes in life you win, sometimes you lose. Even if you lose now, let it go. It just mean that it is time to go and win it the next time or win other things. Once you know the feeling of losing, the more the feeling of winning is sweet. What is more important is what one can learn. When everything end, it is the feeling, the spirit, the memories that are precious. They are the things that are everlasting and worth remembering. Taino, Rector, Xeon and Spydra. These are the names of my OTC and FOC empires. I may not remember each and everyone of the people in them but all of them are someone special to me. It is like if someone comes up to me and says, "Hi! I was from Rector/Xeon/Spydra!" I would be so very happy! Because the things that I went through with each of the empires had been a life-changing experience.

If I had not join as a GL, I would not be what I am today. I maybe still coup up in IT school and a normal production crew who runs around doing backstage work. I know so many people after every OTC, every FOC. I would not be the Vice-President of TPSU now, if I had not join TP. I am really feel grateful to Production Crew and TPSU. Because of them, I have come to love TP so very much. Until such a stage that I am not sad that I am retaining for another year. I think next year I will be even more sad than now.

If I am to go through the past six days of activities, I will definitely miss some stuffs. Anyway, I would like to thank all my GLs for all the hard work done, all the efforts that they put in. My freshies, for attending the camp, for being so sporting, for giving me the one of the best time of my life.

I am starting to talk like I am going to leave TP. "Haha!" Silly me. Anyway, say so much also no use. I have too much to say. Maybe I will post them in future entries. *wonders* Good Night Singapore. Picture of the day is a photo of all the participant of FOC!

April 9th, 2006.

4.17pm

Recently, I went for an audition. The crew from the Project Pilot film which I was involved in, called me up and told me that there is a production house which found me very suitable for a role which they are casting in an upcoming new production. Was thinking that I could not get the role as I had no news of it ever since the audition. Out of the blue, last night, the producer of the production SMSed me. He said the director wants to meet me. Today the director, Nicholas called me. He told me I got the role! *grins* So happy! Once I got off the phone, I immediately told my parents. But my parents gave me an indifferent attitude. *sad* My mummy told me what all I need to do now is to get my diploma. Everything else I do now is useless and for nuts. As least this is what I interpret from her words. *sad* Is the piece of paper so important? I mean I know it is important if I am looking for an office job. But I am not. I do not even mind doing odd jobs for life. That is how I am. That is something which I really do not like about Singapore's education system and society. One wrong step and you are struggling for life. Can someone please do a survey and find out the what Singapore kids want? I know compare to other countries surrounding us, we are very well off. But I think it is a trade off. Sometimes I think I am a farmer, a wanderer at heart. Sometimes I really wish to let go of everything and just go travel the world. See for my eyes first how the world is like. My parents could not be more supportive? On Chn U now, there is a repeat telecast of the Campus Superstar. I am wondering if the one on the stage is me, how will my parents be like? Supportive? Indifferent? Nothing matter more than the piece of paper? Maybe I will be like that to my children in the future? *wonders*

9.12pm

Wish to highlight a newspaper article. Sunday Times' Lifestyle. Page 4. It is able nowadays Singapore's Alpha Females. I think some of the people whom I know should read it up. Either those deal with them or some who wish to become them.

Anyway going to school already. Can feel the hype coming up on me! Thought this would be my last FOC. Alas, how wrong I am. *grins* Anyway I will cherish all the memories. *smiles* Take care Singapore! I will! Need to go and pack my bag now. *winks* Front side of my Spydra's tee!

April 9th, 2006.

3.06am

Home. Just now had a night out with Ah Guang, Andrew, Eugene, Yao Ming, Flannery and Ah Boi. Seven guys out for a movie in town. How lonely. *grins* Watched "Reincarnation". Everyone of us rate it as 7/5 stars. It is a must watch. "Haha!" Anyway I had fun. *grins*

First, I would like to thank everyone for your concern. Really appreciate it. Really can feel the love. *grins* Finally let the cat out of the bag. Do not know why. But this morning after I woke up and on the way to the bustop, I called my father and told him about the matter of me retaining. It was all not according to plan! The plan was to tell my mummy first and let her break the news to my dad. "Argh!" Do not know what struck me. Anyway, it was not as bad as I would have thought it would be. Both my mummy and dad was more of disappointed than angry. Come to think about it, I am very sorry for causing trouble and worry to them. I truly am. *breath in* What I can do now is to study hard and clear everything. Do what I can. Just glad that the worst part is over.

Another person that I wish to bring up is actually Wendy. My year one Dramatec president. Here is a person who actually have an impact in my life. She is the one who believe in me. She is the one who ignited my passion in acting. She is the one who casted me in my first ever lead role, my first real acting experience, "Sing to the Dawn". She always care. Everytime she sees me, she asked about how I am. And I can really felt that she meant it. I met her today on the train. She boarded at Tanah Merah. She thought I was graduating. But I told her I am retaining. She kind of gave me a scolding. "Haha!" She told me I am a talent. But I need to move on. Move out of TP. Maybe go into politics. *grins* We could not talk much, she alighted at Bedok. Until now she still believe in me so strongly, although we have met only a couple of times since she graduated two years back. "Thank You Wendy!"

In less than 20 hours, I am going to school for Freshmen Orientation Camp. I am so excited! Kind of. Beenox is very prepared. *grins* Hope my Spydra is up to the challenge. Picture of the Day is the t-shirt design of Spydra! Enjoy! And Good Night Singapore! *winks*

April 7th, 2006.

9.30pm

Sitting at Tampines small mac for the pass one hour. And still waiting for Sook. *grins* Keeping myself busy by people-watching. It is quite fun. You people out there should give it a try. You can get to see how people dress, how people walk, how people smoke, how people smile, how people frown, how people hold hands etc. There is always something to learn.

Anyway, one of my avid readers actually SMS me saying, "Hey,happen 2 read ur blog. didnt noe wat happen bt I persnaly feel, dnd was great, at least tings went well n ppl enjy. Juz take comnt n feedback as pointers 4 future ref. Dun take wrds too harshly. Dnd is u n ur team's baby.Juz remb,Its nt actuali abt the outcum,bt u enjyed d process=) *pat k dun nag le=x tc!" And I really wonder if this avid reader is a mass comm student. "Haha!" Thank you! Really appreciate your concern. Will try to work towards something like that.

Sook is still not here. Going to call her now.

Just got off the phone. We are going to reschedule the meeting. Going home now.

11.00pm

Watching "Peach Protein" on SCV Chn 49. I like this TV program more everytime I watch it. It really touch on some topics which come to mind everytime. Once, one taiwan artiste point out that, when a girl goes into a relationship means she love him but for the guy, normally it means he somewhat like her. Funny how this sound to you young guys and girls right? Today's topic is on "Force Marriage". Guys are the ones who will run away most of the time when the marriage topic is brought up. The guests invited for the show are very interesting. All the things they have spoken are very true. I agree. People should not marry because of outside pressure. Nothing should be force.

Oh! By the way, today I have applied for CCA Scholarship. Andrew and Guang had too. Hope we are successful! *fingers cross*

And I am still waiting for my parents to come back to tell them the news.

April 6th, 2006.

8.52pm

Currently in YEC meeting. Very few people in attendance. And it is freezing. As usual, nothing new or interesting. Went through the D&D pictures Elyn took. Very nice! Brought back a lot of memories. "Haha!" Sound like it had ended ages ago.

Anyway, today we(D&D main committee) had a post event debrief. At first, most of the others did not wish to speak at first. I had to speak until I am dizzy. *grins* Once everyone warmed up, it got tensed. After everything, I asked Ah Guang, "Have I done anything wrong?" I hope everyone do not have any regrets joining the committee. I would still like to express my utmost gratitude and appreciation to every single person who had helped out in D&D, in one way or another. Like what I keep saying these few weeks, "Live and Learn". Most of the finances have been settled. Thought we can settle everything this week, but after talking with Ah Guang, it seems that we will need another week or two. *sad* Think I should go back and concentrate on the meeting. Do not know why I feel very low now. Maybe cause the debrief. *pouts*

9.37pm

Still in the meeting. But something just came to me as I was browsing through the NYC newsletter. During the debrief, one question was thrown to me, "After six months of hard work, who do you think is more heartache about the video?" To me, naturally it will means all the main committee members. This whole thing is not about a single department, not a single person, not me, not Ah Guang etc. This problem which concern everyone. Everyone feels bad and sad about it. Period. Thinking back, I should not be always blaming myself everytime someone make a comment about me. For issues on my style of management, if everyone have anything to say regarding it, I cannot help it. It is my style. It may change in the near future, it may never. I have no idea. Ten years down the road, if everything I have use on my main committee members is of no use, no experience earned, then I have nothing to say. Up till date, I believe the things that I had done are for the best, for the personal growth of the main committee. *wonders* "Really?"

11.40pm

Home. Do not understand why I am still quite bother about the whole thing. Do not know why I cannot be like Ah Guang. Be silent and keep his cool about everything. Was listening to my IPod when on the way home just now. Do not know why, everytime the song will definitely suit my mood. This time it is "Unwell" by MatchBox Twenty...

April 4th, 2006.

10.56am

Now at SAA waiting for Lawrenz. Suppose to meet him to discuss about Week Zero matters. But he is now where to be found. And I just had a nose bleed. *frowns* Do not know why. Out of the blue. Luckily I save my shirt from the blood. *grins* Sometimes I really think I am dying... Wanted to go to work out yesterday. Going to work out today. But nose bleed... "Hack lah! Die, die lor!" "Haha!"

3.24pm

Now en route to town. Going to meet Elyn. Going to get my D&D pictures from her. I am soOoOo excited! *grins* But today's weather is like the Blue Monday, or rather the crazy Saturday. From the scorching sun, suddenly the weather turns into a torrent downpour. Have not a single clue what the Heavens are planning. Having a quarrel? Crying? Or making fun of us "O' mere mortals"? On bus 23. Suppose to meet Elyn at 3pm. So obviously I am late. *grins* "Sorry Elyn! (If you are reading this)" Going to change bus now. See ya guys later!

7.06pm

Currently sitting in TCC - Lido. Elyn went to answer the phone. She looks troubled. Do not know why, but today's atmosphere is somewhat different from the other days. Maybe it is the lack of the crowd? The noise? Soft music permeates the air. Quite cool. Should get back to talking to her. *grins*

11.59pm

Home. For now, everything on my mind now revolves around how to tell my mum about my results... Anyway, Picture of the Day is on the picture which Elyn thinks is very nice. She developed two pieces of it! "Haha!" By the way, "Thank You Elyn!" for your help during my D&D! :)

April 4th, 2006.

2.21am

Just finished watching "Train Man" on SCV Chn 56. I think it is a very nice drama series. It is one of those which actually can catch my attention and glue my eyes to it. The story is about the typical one man who is not popular with girls, low self esteem, cry baby etc. By a stroke of chance, he met and saved a beautiful girl from a drunkard on the train. From then on, the all story is about how his online friends, people who do not know each other, encourage him to go for the girl. Try to catch it yourself. It is nice. It kind of reflect the thoughts in me. It is really amazing how the whole thing, which seems fictional, can happen in real life too.

Earlier today had FOC meeting, wanted to go work out. But it rained. *sad* Had people who came from the Singapore Association For the Deaf, to teach us the sign language. It is for our up and coming new school song. Everyone was just starting to catch it. But once they are suppose to do it with the school song, everyone went bonkers! It was so cool! So fun! *grins* Went to had a munch with Wei Qi. Bitched a bit. "Haha!"

Yesterday had plans to go to Rockamania XII for some plaque receiving thingy. But it was cancelled due to the rain. Went for nothing. Date Angel out. Went dinner. Bitched for around 3 to 4 hours. Talked a lot. Went movie. It has been a long while since we had time out together. Felt like old times. *grins*

A lot of things are happening and they are getting into me. Not feeling good. Never mind. Good Night Singapore. Picture of the day, Angel and me.