February 27th, 2006.

3.25pm

Just finished FOC 1st meeting, sitting in the office. It was quite brief. A lot left to discuss.

Slept @ 3.00am this morning. Read the papers before that. I think it will benefit you people out there to go and read the yesterday's papers, Sunday Times and The New Paper. My past few days' entries, I was blogging about Mr S. Rajaratnam. I keep a lookout for reports about him. I would like very much to know about more him. The first few pages are very interesting. I took my time to go through the pages, although I was very tired. While reading, I was also listening to a cantonese song "海濶天空" by Beyond. The combination of life stories and sorrow music got my eyes got teary and I nearly wept. When I finally turn in, I could not sleep. Tossed and turn about. Do not know how much time had passed before I fell asleep, with the song reminiscing through my head...

11.52pm

En route home, on the bus 969. Suddenly thought of something. In the drama series, The Conqueror's Story, Lu Zhi (wife of Liu Bang) said that men under Xiang Yu of Chu because will not have chance to make a name for themselves and are look upon as dogs, as Xiang Yu is both full of wisdom and courage. A talented man like him will naturally take things upon himself and look down on people. Whereas the case for her husband, Liu Bang the Han King, is a man without much talent. Therefore will take in and groom those who have that which he do not possess.

I believe this is very true. Sometimes I feel that people are too dependent on me and I am really very tired of it. At times, when things need to be done, I got this bad habit of not delegating it to others. I believe that if one needs to get work done, he/she needs to do it himself/herself. Sometimes I feel like I am Liu Bang as when I meet someone with talents that I can use, I will take note of the person and use him/her. But most of the time I feel that I am Xiang Yu. I get agitated over the smallest things. Hope I can change this bad habit of mine.

I got suan so many times today! Victor, Terence, Wei Qi etc. all suan me! *pouts* Never mind. I will take it as "constructive feedback." "Haha!"

Today my friend brought me to a very nice place. It have all kinds of sweets, chocolates, biscuits, cookies and many other kinds of candy! Maybe some of you people out there know of this place. It called the "Candy Empire". Exactly like the name suggest, one can really get any manner of candy in there. There are Mars bars that are shaped into Mars balls! Willy Wonka products occupied on shelf! Anyone who is already wondering where this wonderful place is at, it is situated at millennia walk.

This is something for all out there. If you encountered troubles and problems that are too overbearing, get someone to share it with you. Either that or take it easy and remember "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going." Sometimes cry it out will help as during the process, it helps you to de-stress and the tears even serve to clean the eyes.

The picture is the popia that I have inside my tummy now. "Hehe!" And my Papa is sleeping in my room today... So Good Night Singapore!

February 26th, 2006.

1.07pm

Watching Super Generation on SCV Ch54. Today's topic is "Do Me and My Parents have Generation Gap?" Surveys done in Taiwan state that 60.2% of the kids feel that there is. The 4 kids on the show are expressing their unhappiness. regarding why they feel


3.16pm

Back from lunch. Like the time I get to spend with my parents. Seldom really sit down together to talk and listen. Told them about Ah Boi and my future plans. 5 years. That is the yardstick we are going to go by in the future. We give ourselves 5 years after our NS, to either make it or fail it. If possible, I wish to get married before 30 and get my Mini Cooper as well. Plan to go into business together. And retire before the age of 50. To many, this is what most would wish and dream to achieve. But to us this is not a dream, we have the means and the capabilities for this to happen. We are very fortunate to meet a lot of people who give us the chance and opportunities. This is a plan, not a dream.

After I publicized this blog with my msn nick, a lot of people ask me with questions like, "You have got a blog?", "Blog? You?", "Your blog?" etc. As my blog description has stated, I hope people understand me, and I understand me. Just a place to pour put my thoughts. Someone told me, the more my blog is publicized, the lesser freedom I have to write. Agree. But I do not mind. I will write what I feel should be written.

Back to writing my resume.

11.09pm

Finally finished my resume in the afternoon. Do not have much to write for my resume. Hope I can get a job with it. Had been couch potato-ing for the whole day. Watching news now. Read the today's paper. Saw the report on Mr Rajarntam's state funeral. Read throught Mr LKY's eulogy again. Saw him on the news. He welcome the opposition to contest for his GRC. *Wonders* Who will? "Haha!" Like the chinese saying goes "Using the egg, to attack the rock." But I think only through competition will standards be improved. So we can only wait and see.

Going to work out tomorrow again. Hope to get better timing. Going to have FOC meeting and hope that when I go and check out the DnD tickets sales, it will be good. *cross fingers*

Alright Singapore. Good Night. Look at the picture. I am so asleep. :) *still listening to "You're Beautiful."* Do not know why. But it suits my mood.

February 25th, 2006.

2.20am

Just finish watching "The Conquerer's Story" on SCV Ch55. Something creep into my mind. As we know the history is normally written by the victor, no one knows what the process was. What if a certain thing was not said or done by a certain person. Would that have changed history and the whole world? I think it is the same for today's world. Someone great like the late Mr Rajaratnam, has just pass away peacefully. He had made changes to Singapore that no other man had. If there is someone out there who can do the same in the future, that would be great. But with the increasing disasters, especially those man-caused, that someone maybe lost. That particular person, whether he or she, could have invented or founded something. Perhaps a cure for a certain terminal disease, perhaps a law that could change the world and perhaps... anything! And thus the chance of that particular future is lost. Forever. So I wonder why do certain things happen? People do not think about their future? Just about the present and care about the past. Why riots? Why bombings? Why because of religious differences? Why because of cartoons? Why terrorism? Why? Why? Why?

If someone knows anything about these, please post a comment or get my contact. Thank you.

Off to bed. "Pondering" Good Night Singapore.

11.45pm

Just had a 40 minutes bath. Long time since I had such a long bath. Do not know why, but suddenly got very "emo" today. Took some time to read the papers when I got home just now. There are a couple of pages at the Home section of today's Saturday Times that I wish everyone to go n read. It is about a great man, a great Singaporean, Mr Rajaratnam, whose state funeral I went to today.

The Esplande's 1,600 seater Concert Hall was filled nearly to the brim, with about 1.400 family members, friends and guests. I went in with little prior knowledge of this great man. But after sitting in the hall for 3 hours and after 4 men's eulogies, I got to realize why some many people come to respect him. Although I saw some people dozing off and some kids giggling, the whole atmosphere was solemn and deep with grief. Mr LKY cried when he was completing his last sentence. What could have make a man like him cry in front of national TV? The last time which I can recall a similar case was back to 1965, when we are separated from then, Malaya. What would have become of all of us if the separation had not happened? No one knows.

When we recited the pledge to end of the state funeral, there was a whole new meaning to it, to me. I believe most of people whole were presented, felt the same. We knew why it was written and what it hope to achieve. By reciting it for the past 10 years of my uniformed education, there was no particular meaning. And now, there is. But reciting the pledge, we are keeping Mr Rajaratnam's ideas and dreams alive.

"He never lost his temper at his fellows or subordinates." This was what most of the people said of him. For a person who is involve in some leadership positions, I am guilty of losing my temper on numerous occasions. For me, I think it is a very difficult thing to do. I will try to change. He is someone who have the utmost respect from people who knows him. I hope that I can be that too.

"How one is remembered during the last days of one's life is what death is really all about." Mr S. Rajaratnam in 1991. Reflect back, I know a lot people. I have 900+ contacts in my phone book. I wonder is how will my end be like? People often ask me why be so concerned by how people view me. I have many other friends to turn to. But I replied, "I am what I am today, with this amount of friends, is because I care."

After the state funeral ended, we went to lunch at Suntec with NPSU. And to Bugis, to accompany Victor to collect his CPU. Played Photohunt in the arcade. Did not had a good time. Do not know why. Emotional thoughts and feelings. All the songs that I heard today were all very emotional and sad. That is why music is described as the voice of life. The song that I wish to recommend is "You're Beautiful." by James Blunt. I know this song is quite old already, but I do not know why. But it feels my mood and I like it.

Still have not continue to write my resume. Do not have program tomorrow. Hope to couch potato and complete it soon. See ya Singapore.

February 24th, 2006.

1.10am

Watching "White Chicks". Heard it is a very funny movie. Hope it does not disappoint me.

2.50am

*yawn* Going to sleep. The movie is very nice! "Triple T, K, A!" "The Time To Kick Ass!" "Haha!" Gd Night Singapore!

12.51pm

Ah Boi called. His great grandmother just pass away. *sigh* Life is so fragile. Recently there are so much news over our Ex-DPM Rajaratnam. I do not really know him. But from the reports and comments made by the people who know him, I think he was a great man. As a founding father of Singapore, he was also the architect the today's independent Singapore. Little did I know that, our pledge was written by him. That is the very idea of what he wish Singapore to be. I would like very much to know this great man.

I think death is just another part of life's stage. That is when one hands in his/her final report. Some of the great civilizations like the Egyptian and Chinese. Both the of these great civilizations believes in the life after death. Egyptian built the Great Pyramids and chinese burn incense and built the Terra Cotta Warriors and Horses. All these great works are evidence of how strong the belief of life after death.

Infomation on Mr Rajaratnam:
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/obituary/rajaratnam/life.htm

Information on the Great Pyramid:
http://ce.eng.usf.edu/pharos/wonders/pyramid.html

Information on Terra Cotta Warriors and Horses:
http://www.travelchinaguide.com/attraction/shaanxi/xian/terra_cotta_army/

2.41pm

Got a call from Celine, saying Students' Union is suppose to send 10 representatives to the Ex DPM Rajaratnam. I am definitely going. To show my respect for this great man. What are the chances? Just 2 hours ago I was writing about him and now I get to go for his state funeral.

2.47pm

What is wrong with weird weird people and singing? For my case, they almost always goes together! Yesterday, while jogging at Bedok Reservoir, there was this chinese guy who was walking and when I jogged past, he was singing "One Night in Bejiing". I simply RAN. *jaw dropped* Currently eating at Mensa 2 (One of TP nicer canteens), these 2 guys and 1 rather cute girl walk in. One of the guy start singing in front of Salad Bar (One of the nicer western food stall)! And I am just behind him! *Argh* I am in the middle of a meal... What worries me is that the girl does not seem to mind. *roll eyes* And she is quite cute. I should just carry on eating. Although he is still singing...

3.07pm

Leaving Mensa 2, and he is still singing... *roll eyes*dazed*

3.33pm

Sitting at BizPark (One of the most populated canteens in TP), continue writing resume and looking for people to go for the state funeral tomorrow.
*wonders*scratch head* What is left after one's death are he/she achieved or not.

For Ah Boi's case, his great grandmother is the matriarch of a family of five generations. Although not a public figure, her article occupy half a page in the Straits Times' obituary.

To relate to the late Mr Rajaratnam, for a guy at the age of the 90 and with his achievements, a nation mourns for him.

Terence came. Now going to find Ah Guang and Andrew at Astro Turf. Have not start doing resume...

11.55pm

Home. Just had fun and laughter with some of my fellow ExCos (Terence, Victor and Yao Ming (See the picture!)) at the Bedok Interchange hawker centre. Talk over recent happenings, future happenings, NYP Tammy!, and lots of other stuff. "Haha!" And Victor ate hell of a lot! Mutton soup, Hokkein mee, Fried kway teow, Tung yuan and a cup of sugar cane! *jaw dropped* Sat there for 3 hours. "Cool man."

Tomorrow I am going for a great man's funeral. Formal wear. Going to hot, but it is just 5 hours and he is 90 years of age. And damm, my march and april schedule is filling up! "Argh!"

Will write more about tommorrow's funeral. See ya Singapore.

February 23rd, 2006.

8.15pm

Gave Elyn a wake up call. Both of us mumbled and mumble. I went back to sleep.

12.00pm

Woke up. Crawled out of bed. Miss my usual 9.30am cartoon. "Argh!"

12.35pm

Elyn called me and told me a racist joke. And crapped over the phone. And she told me she went back to sleep after my wake up call. "Toot Toot lor."

1.30pm

Meeting with Lay Guat. Clarify lots of DnD financial stuff. Prizes and Door gifts no need to ask for Invitation to Quote!

3.30pm

Went have a jog at the Bedok Reservoir at 2.30pm. Quite sad. Quite slow. Weak liao. Having Assets' Check now. Cleared a lot of stuff. But I relac. Leave all the work to Kazumi and Yao Ming. That is why I can blog. "Haha!" Writing my resume. Quite sad. Results very poor. But a lot to fill up in work experience and CCAs. "Hehe!"

9.50pm

Home for the past hour. Still doing my resume. Also chatting on MSN. Elyn's Msn nick is "gay purple crumpler." *roll eyes* Just dated Elyn for Fat Mama's Back. The trailer looks nice. "Cool man." "Haha!"

11.00pm

Still doing resume. Elyn keep asking me to post today's entry, she wants to read. Taking a long time to do my resume, looking up the actual names of the companies I have free lanced in. Missed today's Tampines NDD meeting.

11.58am

Today settled quite a lot of things with Lay Guat about DnD. Got to settle some union things. March is coming! Got 3 confirmed chalets! And I am going Hong Kong! March 13th to 16th. The whole night chatting on msn. Still have not finish my resume. Continue tomorrow!

February 22nd, 2006.

3.21pm

One friend whom I have not seen for a long time, msg me in MSN. And one of the things she said was, "How can you dun have scandals? U le! :) :) :)" Do I have such a reputation? From what I have heard, yes. Maybe there are things that I had done? Maybe there are things that I had not done? I wonder. Certainly not what I have done knowingly. Seriously.

5.00pm

Finally on the Bus 518. En route to orchard. After 4 buses of 293s, 7 buses of 9s and many other buses. Just pass TP. As usual, lots of people. Had to wave back at people.

Saw Jo. And she sat beside me. She was suaning me about me being gay because of my new purple crumpler pouch. Kaoz. I give people this kind of impression meh? Jo said "YES!" Oh God! Purple is a royal colour. And Jo was saying "So busy!!! Trying to learn how to use new phone!! Ignoring me!" And she fell asleep. She woke up and suan me again. And called valerie. She alighted at Far East.

I like taking long bus rides. It helps me to think. Sometimes I just stone. Like couch potato-ing. Just without the TV. I need a book. I read a lot. Because I like it and it helps me to forget about the world.

Passing Istana. I wonder how is the life a politician. Near to Paradiz Center. Saw a BIG pink balloon. Printed on it was "Singapore's First Pre-Tertiary Arts School". I wonder how will the life of the people who are going to be in there.

This whole entry took me the entire bus journey to complete. Time to alight. 5.46pm

7.53pm

At Esplande. Chilling. Pour out and shared some past BGR experiences with Sook. Ah Boi keep asking Sook to get married. Created quite a ruckus. Funny. Had a great time.

My First Time.

My first time. My style is I will bring my lappy around. I will blog as I go. Into notepad, and just copy and paste. *cross fingers* hope this blog will not be defunct. :)