我的青春。

今天下午又看了［那些年］，不知道为什么每一次看，都有不一样的台词震撼到我。

“我都以为我自己是超有自信的人，但那时我才发现，原来在喜欢的女孩面前，我是个胆小鬼。”

“我失恋了，我失去了沈佳宜。我的青春，什么都不剩了。。。”

刚刚本来是该休息， 可是又不知道为什么，又去重看了［16个夏天］。真的很羡慕唐家妮和方韦德。

A-Lin 演唱会好听吗？

5th ICT

Less than 10hrs since I had out-pro and I am already missing it. Sometimes I wonder why did I even leave the Army. Haha.

With a blink of an eye, five cycles gone. Five more to go. This ICT had been a challenging one. Past two days I was feeling out of sorts as results had not been very ideal. Feeling disappointed with myself. Everyone had been telling me that I had did well already. It was the toughest mission which is why we were sent in. Looking back now, I think I am very happy that my men followed me all the way. None of them fall out. The usual complains but not a single one stop. Even though we missed the H-Hour and the break-in battle crumbled, everyone exhibit resilience and fighting spirit to the end.

I will pick up from here and build on this. I still have two more cycles to let my men stand tall and be proud. For them, I will. An excerpt that had struck me at the start of the ICT and lingered with me all way, would like to share it. Realised that I had heard it before. A long time ago. Band of Brothers. :)

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This story shall the good man teach his son;
And Crispin Crispian shall ne’er go by,
From this day to the ending of the world,
But we in it shall be remembered-
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he to-day that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne’er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition;
And gentlemen in England now a-bed
Shall think themselves accurs’d they were not here,
And hold their manhoods cheap whiles any speaks
That fought with us upon Saint Crispin’s day.
------

On a side note, the toughest thing about going to the field and fight is not the preparation, the fight or even defense. It is after all that. The washing and cleaning of equipment. Hahaha!

Till the next time my brothers. 

五味掺杂的人生

刚看完［16个夏天］。为唐家妮开心。身边有那么爱她，那么关心她的朋友。方韦德跟唐家妮真心的爱。虽然妳说妳不喜欢故事的结局，可是我想往往都是这样的吧。故事里的许多话，对我来说，都很真实。可能有些是我所想说而没说不出来的话吧。

“错过很好。应为错过才知道彼此是唯一。”

下次再见，就是永远了。

两个兄弟的心事。

不知道为什么许久不见的两个兄弟找我诉苦。可能就是应为是兄弟，所以不管有多久没见，还是觉得能谈心。

一个是我在当兵时要好的朋友。人生一向来规划好好的他，事业出现了瓶颈。为他担心。希望他很快的就走出这难关。

第二个可能不能算是认识很久，或认识很深。可是可能应为我们两都聊得开吧。他跟我关心的小妹分手了。一个要四十岁的男人在你面前落泪时，我想你也不知道要做什么吧。我对他说关心的话，默默陪着他。不以为然的，我又想起了妳。

我真很后悔。我看到兄弟的眼泪，听到他的哭泣，就仿佛看到我自己。他跟我说，我们两都没办法了。不珍惜。失去了才懂得她们的重要。他说我还年轻，如果想清楚就去做。我说，我能做什么？她都订婚了。我了解她。她不会做傻事的。哈。

“我还能做什么？” 无奈。

在日本的感觸。

在這日本的午夜里，有了感觸。好像在幾個春天前，也和妳在這有了回憶。

以為自己能遺忘的感覺，在這他鄉的月光下，又點燃了起來。雖然抱著希望的向前邁進，可是還是好像少了什麼。看到妳的照片，聽到妳的消息，一切的一切，對我來說，都有糾結。我知道我只能對妳祝福。我真的為妳開心。

我只能希望我自己也找到幸福。

我知道為什麼現在所撥的歌為什麼就是：「說了再見」。
有諷刺。應該的。

16个夏天

许久了。有了想说的话。

进来，在追看一部台湾偶像剧。《16个夏天》。有了许多我以为自己已经忘了的感觉，以为自己一辈子藏起来的遗憾。有强烈的感触。

男主角有个部落格：来不及对你说的话。主题好妙。好像是我想对妳说的话。哈。
那么巧的写了五年，女主角就看了五年。在某某的一天还能因此而还在一起。有可能妳也看的到我所在写的东西吗？十六个夏天后又能在一起。我想就只有在电视里才有的情节吧。

算是已经很有趣的，能跟妳同一时间，在平行时空里，一起看这部戏。不知道妳有什么感触。组题曲一直在我的脑海里浮现，妳呢？

十个夏天前认识的妳，现在还是妳。
变的更漂亮的妳。
变的更有魅力的妳。
看的现在的妳，我好高兴，好开心。
妳要好好加油。
要幸福，要快乐。
还是要有妳那属于妳的笑容。smile the smile that only belongs to you. 

what you think.

I really do not care what you think. I did not join this job because of the girls.

Fulfilment

All of a sudden, my plan for the year was mapped out.

May to July - French Wine Scholar (FWS)
June - Sake Sommelier
August - a return to Napa Valley to attempt to finish my Certified Wine Educator (CWE)
September to October - hope to start my French Language course

Also do not know why I pack myself with such a hectic schedule. Had started the year with the thought to enjoy my flights. Apparently even that seems like a far fetch target. Some times I think I am piling myself with all these activities to spite myself. Haha. Hope all these "productivity" can bring me somewhere. Maybe deep down inside I am still in pain.

就近看了另外一部九把刀的電影。「等一個人的咖啡」有感觸。覺得有許多台詞很像是我的心裡話。

“無論無何，都要讓我在看一看你再一次開心的笑。”

“對不起。我最大的遺憾是不可以和妳一起變老。”

就像「那些年」一樣。就是幼稚。哈。真的希望她們幸福。今天，聽了一句，“命中有时终须有，命中无时莫强求”，有了刻骨銘心的感覺。是有許多的遺憾，可是現在的我又能怎麼樣呢？哈哈。又突然想到一部武俠小說。

電影主題曲：
沧海一声笑
浮沉随浪 只记今朝
苍天笑 纷纷世上潮
谁负谁胜出 天知晓
江山笑 烟雨遥
涛浪汹尽红尘俗世几多娇

清风笑 竟若寂寥
豪情还剩了一襟晚照
苍生笑 不再寂寥
豪情仍在痴痴笑笑
啦啦…… …… ……

沧海一声笑 滔滔两岸潮

Congratulations

An hour ago, a dear friend called me, and told me she thinks that she is getting married. She being the girl who always have a special place in my heart. Honestly, I did not know what to think at the point of time. I think there was a long moment of blank but the first emotion and thought that came to me was that I felt happy for her. A real sort of happy.

真的是打从心底的，祝福她。希望他能够给她幸福。祝他们开开心心，白头偕老，幸福美满，子孙满堂。

In my heart. Always.

Paris

Awoke by seemingly never satisfied hunger.

Roamed the quaint, quiet bustling capital of France. Trains of unknown faces. With a glass of a dazzling ruby red, facing an ancient square, endured the cold whispering wind and lavishing in memories of the past.

Thus, back to the world of books.

Sounds of wheels grating over the cobblestone streets. A dull ray stubbornly got past the sunscreen. A reminder of a new day.

The accordion echoing in the winding tunnels of white tiled walls, plastered everywhere with old faded news and defaced movie posters. Trains full of ghosts and a couple of slumbering people. Quiet and unnerving.

A traditional cafe filled mosaic tiles and a neon lighted bar. People going about their own business. Simple breakfast with a beautiful coffee. Splendid.

The tourists-packed streets of Montmartre on a Sunday. Young and old, looking for gems of any kind. Had a chance meeting with Salvador Dali. Stepped into the Sacré-Cœur, tranquil and yet filled with fervent prayers. On the nearby steps, a crowd was heard applauding. As I passed, time seems to stop. The last song of the day was so familiar yet so distant.

Le surrealism, c'est moi.

Do

真的累了。

有觉得，做什么都不对。每次都不够好。

菩提本无树 明镜亦非台 本来无一物 何处惹尘埃。

Maybe I should just keep going forward. Doing what I want to do. Or rather, what there is to do. Can some one tell me what to do and how to do it?

A Sweet Encounter

A Sweet Encounter. The theme for Batch 11 Air Sommelier's Graduation. Held on the 28 of January this year. Having a total of 10 newly appointed sommeliers joining the family, crossing the century mark of 101 sommeliers in Singapore Airlines now.

The graduation ceremony had a presentation on sweet wines. Being a broad topic, we had decided to have a food and wine pairing. What better way to understand than tasting the pairing, the mariage of wine and food. Just name a few, Ice Riesling from Australia and Thai Mango Sticky Rice,  Tokaiji from Hungary and Foie Gras. With feedback from the guests, it was sensational!

Our Sommeliers have to get accredited by Wine and Spirit Education Trust (WSET) up to the advance level. And attend a gruelling but very enjoyable 10 months course, with term tests and projects all thrown in. It was not an easy journey but definitely a fruitful one.

Heartiest Congratulations to all! Keep up the passion for wine. In Vino Veritas, In Aqua Sanitas. 

Decanter Shanghai

29 of November 2014. The date of the first Decanter event in China. First time ever in Asia, all five of the Bordeaux First Growths came together for a masterclass. All the big wigs of the wine world gathered in strength in Shanghai. Peter Sisseck of Dominus Pigus, Peter Gago of Penfolds, Aurelio Montes of Montes Wines, just to name a few. With a total of 99 booths in exhibition and over 500 wines to taste!

A group of young wine enthusiasts, 9 of our very own cabin crew, got together and went to attend this inaugural event. Had the fortune to meet up with our very own Wine Connoisseurs, Jeanie Cho Lee MW and also Steven Spurrier.

Through this experience, we were able to broaden our perspective and also get to taste many wines from the various regions of the world. Able to get more information and clarity from the view of the producers and most importantly, we are able to get a better understanding of the industry outside of Singapore.

Wine is bottled poetry - Robert Louis Stevenson

Decanter is a UK-based wine publication that provide wine reviews, organise wine events and wine competitions. 

Just came back from a run up and down the AKL wharf area. refreshing. long time since I had work my legs. need to get back into shape. a round shape. haha.

Everywhere I turn, I see you in my mind's eye. Saw a giant Nutella Jar. Saw Portofino. Saw a beautiful sunset. saw the "bimbo" wine. saw the cider that you like. 到处都是你的身影。 smiling to myself the whole way.

Thought about it... We are so happy together. 有很多的舍不得。可以不要只是一个过路人吗？can I not be just a passerby in your life? 可以给我们一个机会吗？我自己也不知道可不可以给你幸福，可是我会try. 愿意take a leap of faith? 

reflections from long ago.

Long since my last post. but today i am really feeling it.

Why do I fail at so many things? looking at photos. past and present-ish. feel a kind of sourness in my heart. aching enough that I had to write it. 

Looked her profile. She is doing very well. very happy for her. a much better guy than i ever can be. 希望妳开心，快乐，幸福，健康。只可以默默的为妳加油。I am sure such a wonderful and amazing girl like you, will have a fairy tale ending. deserve better than me. :)

另一个你。谢谢妳愿意陪小小的我。谢谢你愿陪我看世界。虽然我以为我是有机会的。

妳。真的。太可爱了。又美。又能干。我喜欢，可是妳觉得妳不配。嗨。

真的好想米兰和哥本哈根。