16个夏天

许久了。有了想说的话。

进来，在追看一部台湾偶像剧。《16个夏天》。有了许多我以为自己已经忘了的感觉，以为自己一辈子藏起来的遗憾。有强烈的感触。

男主角有个部落格：来不及对你说的话。主题好妙。好像是我想对妳说的话。哈。
那么巧的写了五年，女主角就看了五年。在某某的一天还能因此而还在一起。有可能妳也看的到我所在写的东西吗？十六个夏天后又能在一起。我想就只有在电视里才有的情节吧。

算是已经很有趣的，能跟妳同一时间，在平行时空里，一起看这部戏。不知道妳有什么感触。组题曲一直在我的脑海里浮现，妳呢？

十个夏天前认识的妳，现在还是妳。
变的更漂亮的妳。
变的更有魅力的妳。
看的现在的妳，我好高兴，好开心。
妳要好好加油。
要幸福，要快乐。
还是要有妳那属于妳的笑容。smile the smile that only belongs to you. 

what you think.

I really do not care what you think. I did not join this job because of the girls.

Fulfilment

All of a sudden, my plan for the year was mapped out.

May to July - French Wine Scholar (FWS)
June - Sake Sommelier
August - a return to Napa Valley to attempt to finish my Certified Wine Educator (CWE)
September to October - hope to start my French Language course

Also do not know why I pack myself with such a hectic schedule. Had started the year with the thought to enjoy my flights. Apparently even that seems like a far fetch target. Some times I think I am piling myself with all these activities to spite myself. Haha. Hope all these "productivity" can bring me somewhere. Maybe deep down inside I am still in pain.

就近看了另外一部九把刀的電影。「等一個人的咖啡」有感觸。覺得有許多台詞很像是我的心裡話。

“無論無何，都要讓我在看一看你再一次開心的笑。”

“對不起。我最大的遺憾是不可以和妳一起變老。”

就像「那些年」一樣。就是幼稚。哈。真的希望她們幸福。今天，聽了一句，“命中有时终须有，命中无时莫强求”，有了刻骨銘心的感覺。是有許多的遺憾，可是現在的我又能怎麼樣呢？哈哈。又突然想到一部武俠小說。

電影主題曲：
沧海一声笑
浮沉随浪 只记今朝
苍天笑 纷纷世上潮
谁负谁胜出 天知晓
江山笑 烟雨遥
涛浪汹尽红尘俗世几多娇

清风笑 竟若寂寥
豪情还剩了一襟晚照
苍生笑 不再寂寥
豪情仍在痴痴笑笑
啦啦…… …… ……

沧海一声笑 滔滔两岸潮

Congratulations

An hour ago, a dear friend called me, and told me she thinks that she is getting married. She being the girl who always have a special place in my heart. Honestly, I did not know what to think at the point of time. I think there was a long moment of blank but the first emotion and thought that came to me was that I felt happy for her. A real sort of happy.

真的是打从心底的，祝福她。希望他能够给她幸福。祝他们开开心心，白头偕老，幸福美满，子孙满堂。

In my heart. Always.

Paris

Awoke by seemingly never satisfied hunger.

Roamed the quaint, quiet bustling capital of France. Trains of unknown faces. With a glass of a dazzling ruby red, facing an ancient square, endured the cold whispering wind and lavishing in memories of the past.

Thus, back to the world of books.

Sounds of wheels grating over the cobblestone streets. A dull ray stubbornly got past the sunscreen. A reminder of a new day.

The accordion echoing in the winding tunnels of white tiled walls, plastered everywhere with old faded news and defaced movie posters. Trains full of ghosts and a couple of slumbering people. Quiet and unnerving.

A traditional cafe filled mosaic tiles and a neon lighted bar. People going about their own business. Simple breakfast with a beautiful coffee. Splendid.

The tourists-packed streets of Montmartre on a Sunday. Young and old, looking for gems of any kind. Had a chance meeting with Salvador Dali. Stepped into the Sacré-Cœur, tranquil and yet filled with fervent prayers. On the nearby steps, a crowd was heard applauding. As I passed, time seems to stop. The last song of the day was so familiar yet so distant.

Le surrealism, c'est moi.

Do

真的累了。

有觉得，做什么都不对。每次都不够好。

菩提本无树 明镜亦非台 本来无一物 何处惹尘埃。

Maybe I should just keep going forward. Doing what I want to do. Or rather, what there is to do. Can some one tell me what to do and how to do it?

A Sweet Encounter

A Sweet Encounter. The theme for Batch 11 Air Sommelier's Graduation. Held on the 28 of January this year. Having a total of 10 newly appointed sommeliers joining the family, crossing the century mark of 101 sommeliers in Singapore Airlines now.

The graduation ceremony had a presentation on sweet wines. Being a broad topic, we had decided to have a food and wine pairing. What better way to understand than tasting the pairing, the mariage of wine and food. Just name a few, Ice Riesling from Australia and Thai Mango Sticky Rice,  Tokaiji from Hungary and Foie Gras. With feedback from the guests, it was sensational!

Our Sommeliers have to get accredited by Wine and Spirit Education Trust (WSET) up to the advance level. And attend a gruelling but very enjoyable 10 months course, with term tests and projects all thrown in. It was not an easy journey but definitely a fruitful one.

Heartiest Congratulations to all! Keep up the passion for wine. In Vino Veritas, In Aqua Sanitas. 

Decanter Shanghai

29 of November 2014. The date of the first Decanter event in China. First time ever in Asia, all five of the Bordeaux First Growths came together for a masterclass. All the big wigs of the wine world gathered in strength in Shanghai. Peter Sisseck of Dominus Pigus, Peter Gago of Penfolds, Aurelio Montes of Montes Wines, just to name a few. With a total of 99 booths in exhibition and over 500 wines to taste!

A group of young wine enthusiasts, 9 of our very own cabin crew, got together and went to attend this inaugural event. Had the fortune to meet up with our very own Wine Connoisseurs, Jeanie Cho Lee MW and also Steven Spurrier.

Through this experience, we were able to broaden our perspective and also get to taste many wines from the various regions of the world. Able to get more information and clarity from the view of the producers and most importantly, we are able to get a better understanding of the industry outside of Singapore.

Wine is bottled poetry - Robert Louis Stevenson

Decanter is a UK-based wine publication that provide wine reviews, organise wine events and wine competitions. 

Just came back from a run up and down the AKL wharf area. refreshing. long time since I had work my legs. need to get back into shape. a round shape. haha.

Everywhere I turn, I see you in my mind's eye. Saw a giant Nutella Jar. Saw Portofino. Saw a beautiful sunset. saw the "bimbo" wine. saw the cider that you like. 到处都是你的身影。 smiling to myself the whole way.

Thought about it... We are so happy together. 有很多的舍不得。可以不要只是一个过路人吗？can I not be just a passerby in your life? 可以给我们一个机会吗？我自己也不知道可不可以给你幸福，可是我会try. 愿意take a leap of faith? 

reflections from long ago.

Long since my last post. but today i am really feeling it.

Why do I fail at so many things? looking at photos. past and present-ish. feel a kind of sourness in my heart. aching enough that I had to write it. 

Looked her profile. She is doing very well. very happy for her. a much better guy than i ever can be. 希望妳开心，快乐，幸福，健康。只可以默默的为妳加油。I am sure such a wonderful and amazing girl like you, will have a fairy tale ending. deserve better than me. :)

另一个你。谢谢妳愿意陪小小的我。谢谢你愿陪我看世界。虽然我以为我是有机会的。

妳。真的。太可爱了。又美。又能干。我喜欢，可是妳觉得妳不配。嗨。

真的好想米兰和哥本哈根。

嗨。突然很想你。

可是我知道我们是不又可能的。只是很想念吧了。

希望你过的开心，快乐。

不要哭了。笑吧。你笑起来，我特别喜欢。好漂亮喔。

晚安小朋友。希望我睡的了。你做个好梦吧。

one of my favourite movies of all time.

"How can you love me? You don't even know my name.."

从朋友变成情人的时候，往往是。。。最难的。

正在看《烈火战车》。有了很多感触。我像阿祖的“幼稚”，而你像她的关心和执着。你看了，可能会有跟我一样的感觉吧。

执着.

跟阿妈一起看台湾长剧，有新的体会。人生无常，何必那执着呢？嗨。


so now i cannot mention anything about anyone who had a past with me? why pile so much emotional baggage on yourself? So from now on, I dont speak to any other girl who is interested in me, that will make you much happier? sigh. You really need me to be like that? 

So today, I managed to ruin your day? sigh. I dont blame your friend. She is just saying. I have nothing to hide. I am just really tired of all these. A perfectly fine day and "Hey, she say she saw you in town. Saw you 约会。" and there ends the beautiful day. sigh. buy 4D/Lottery also not so 准。Have not seen her for months and first lunch and this happened. Argh! so irritated. sigh.


郎有情，女有意。我们到底在做什么？

I would really wish i know what you are thinking about. What are you unhappy about? sigh.  why so literal? 

很烦。不知道你在想什么。我又做错了什么？你到底在不开心什么？嗨。

heard this from Robin during the wedding:
"Knowing you is fate. Being your friend is my choice. Falling in love with you is beyond my control." oh my... so sweet. wonder when will is be in his shoes, on the podium. 

这一年的时差

昨天晚上，当我看到落泪的你，我有了一股好想拥抱你的冲动。好想的紧紧的抱着你。嗨。我应该吗？我还是一样。 在表达这方面就是不知所措。你说能唱的出好听的情歌的歌手，都是有故事的。我不是秘密练歌，是听了有上千次同样的歌，看了上百次的MV，有了小小的体会，可以说一些领悟吧。我们都还是一样，可是又不一样。听我唱时，希望你有觉得我在这一年的时差，对感情的感触和体会。

我不知道如何前进。嗨。

跟你在一起的时候，真的很开心。不管是说话或传text都打从心里笑出来。到了现在都会有心跳加速的感觉。

重来

i know she knows the pros and cons of the job. there are always people who try for two years and are back to normal lives. like i said, the job is not hard. and the hard times will pass. one will never be junior forever. hmm. roster is difficult as one will live month by month. but off days are more than most and time can be made after a bit.

One thing is for sure. confirm couple code. :) hmm. but i can wish long long. sigh. 真的可以重来吗？

小朋友，我可以重新认识你吗？

Argghhhh!

I did something damm stupid. I send her 2 postcards in NYC. slot a stack into US Mail Office, and I forgot to fill in her address... And I only realise this on the way back from Frankfurt to singapore... Arghhhhhhh! :( idiot. Finally got the courage to write and screwed up. Arghhh! I want to scream...!!!!