January 12th, 2007

My first of the year 2007... And I am feeling very depressed... and kind of "no steam"? I am so afraid of not being able to go all the way down to the end of the road... Although I know that I will finish it one way or the other. Somehow. But... Sigh...

Anyway, enough about me. In this new year, I hope to see a better year ahead for everyone. Good Health, Good Pay and Good Luck! :)

P.S. I think Singapore is a great country. So small, yet so big. Of course there are these and thats, which get almost everyone to be up on our feets, jumping around, complaining about this and that. But all in all, I think Singapore is a great place to be at. Of course, I am hoping to see the world someday (Hope it will be soon), but I am sure I will be back. A BIG Thank You and many many small thank you(s), to everyone who had a part to play in my life, even if you had just passed by. :)

I am feeling a little bit better after writing all these. A LITTLE. *grins*sigh* Hopes everything works out. Got to go home now. Just finished an event in school. Having a headache. I think.

Good Night Singapore. God Speed.

December 24th, 2006.

11.29pm

Having a lonely christmas eve at home now. Going to countdown to X'mas later. I realised that I almost always spend festivals at home. *wonders* Don't worry, I have got the stuff ready! Got drinks, Coke mind you (I am not of age yet. :p), half a spring chicken, and great movies to watch! Now watching Love Actually and Man of the House(2005). Channel switching man! :) Smses and calls are coming in... Even at home. Busy busy. It feels nice to alone at home and couch potato-ing. :p

So hope everyone enjoys the festive holidays! Merry X'mas and Happy New Year. Best wishes to all and most importantly, stay happy... :p

December 18th, 2006.

18.22pm

Saw her just now. I think she really still hate me... :(

Sigh. How did it come to this situation? Sigh.

Going for MPS later. Bringing Sarah and Yuting there. :p Last MPS for the year. Hope everyone is well. :p

Take care Singapore! I will try... :p

December 14th, 2006.

"My Dearest, I don't know where to begin..." I did the V/O for BR today. It was fun. I think I did not do well for it. Felt that it was quite mono. :( Hope it was ok.

This whole week I am feeling very free. Although there are things for me to do, events for me to attend, but there is a smell of freedom in the air. :) I am not like the usual self, rushing from this event to that, that event to another event. I am almost always late for something or the other. :p Went for a rare swim. Felt tired but it was refreshing. Would like very much to do it again. :)

Went for 52nd CLT POP. It really brought back memories. There are so many faces that I do not recognise now. There are people who comes up to me and say hi, I think I took them for some course or the other. :p Part of the reason for me to be there was to support Aw Shi Yuan, a cadet that I took for SSC 2005. He was the Overall Best from East District. He did not disappoint East by getting the Valedictorian for his 52nd CLT course. Also saw C.S. He was my junior batch of CLT but he was just commissioned last saturday, along with PM Lee's son. :p Time really flies.

It was drizzling. In between the performances, as usual, East was the noisiest people around. Singing the NCC song (One of the corporate songs that I really love and sing with all my heart, with all the NCC brothers, shoulders to shoulders). Towards the end, there were a couple of moments when I had flashbacks. The slow march into MPH, the donning of my rank by my parents, photo-taking, the singing of songs, etc. I can still remember the things that happened during my CLT course. :) Really unforgetable... Think I am never going to forget about all this for my life. All these really makes me keep going back for NCC. And this also apply to events and places that makes me keep going for it, no matter how long and how bitter it can be sometimes.

Good Night Singapore.

December 7th, 2006.

1.39pm

Oh No! Just look at my last entry. It dates more than 2 months ago. Very sorry. Simply could not get the chance to blog. Yes. I know. It does not take a lot to blog, but seriously for me, if it feels like a chore, I would not blog. :) Just happened that today I am not falling asleep as soon as I got home or straight after I bathed. I decided to blog and give some updates about what I happening to me now. :p

Recently, a lot events had in TP. TP RAWKS just ended with a smashing Jam & Hop. I really do hope that we made the impression on the post-O level students and make them feel that TP is the right place to be. I must admit that it was a gamble and a high-risk play to throw non-experienced GLs to handle the students. But luckily, most part of it turns out well.

Just finished doing my mails. Yes. Again. I am like forever on mails. :) Oh! Our Students' Lounge is kind of decorated for X'mas. :) And these couple of days, we are holding a "Win a PSP for just $1" Challenge. It is to win Mike, from Xtreme Entertainment, in foosball. :) OTC (Orientation Training Camp) is coming up. So excited! Everyday is like having this, having that. So tiring. :(

Oops. Feeling the ZzZz monster coming! Must hurry. :)

Some updates for BR! I am simply amazing by how far we have gone from the orginial plan of a short film. Just came back from the "2nd Asian Film Festival of 1st Films". It was held at Jubilee Hall, Raffles Hotel. I feel awed by the people there. People from all over the whole. Just look at my picture! I took a picture with Anthony Wong! He is one of my favourite actors! He is so good! Cool man! Simply tongue-tied in front of him. And for people who know me, that is a very difficult thing for me to do. :p There were interviews, there were pictures taken, the mingling with people, everything was so mind blowing as it was the first time I had to attend a film fest awards ceremony. :p

Anyway, really got to go, I having my interim project demostration later at 930am. Got to go down and set up early. So better get some sleep. And Oh Ya! I was carry Nic's PSP! I felt great! I would like to have one. So cool. So... *hint hint* Haha! Finally, something that I had not say for a long time... Good Night Singapore! :)

October 5th, 2006.

11.59pm

Had a very tiring day. Met Terence at CPF Macs at 8am in the morning. Had a 2 hours meeting with Raymond after that. Did the ITQ for the lounge photocopier. Went for Dance Ensemble's concert rehearsal. Went home and went to YEC meeting at 8pm. Today's YEC meeting lasted for 4 hours. *sad* :( Quite tired. But I am very happy just now! Verlyn made a cake for the YEC October babies! See the picture?! She made the cake! Furthermore, it was one of my favourite favours, blueberry! :) And today I got a KXM club mascot from Hadijah today! Haha! 6 members only. Now all are alumnus! *grins* Miss all the KXM club people!

Tired. Going to sleep now. Good Night Singapore!

October 1st, 2006.

1.35pm

Happy Children's Day! *grins* Yes. I did a couple of changes to my blog. After various feedback by some readers, I changed back to the original blog skin. Yes. I am going to change the tag box colour, soon I hope. :p The amazing counter also changed to unique visits only too. So tired now. Going to catch some sleep. *grins*

September 25th, 2006.

7.35pm

Currently sitting in the MOI lab. Just finished the STOMPAIDS meeting. Everyone has left. Now in here with some people I do not know. Oh. Yes. Some background information: A team of us, Abby, Hui Leng, JJ, Pei Ru and I got into a marketing competition organised my Health Promotion Board (HPB). Got shortlisted. So now we got to organise everything and try to win the prize, $10,000. :) Schedule to do a presentation tomorrow. Hope everything goes well.

Some updates! Yes. I know I know. It was more than 2 weeks since my last post. I was very very busy. Let me do some recounting (looking through my iCal). Since my last post, I had a "couple" of things on":

14 to 15, I was at Fort Canning Hill doing a Motorola Roadshow. It was quite impressive. The organisers brought in 2 units of giant air-conditioner. Cool! :)

16 to 17, I was at UOB Plaza doing a party for UOB. They had something in line with the IMF. Everyone had something to do for the IMF. The food at the UOB event was fabulous! *grins* Anyway, I bring Amanda and Tat Ming to Boi's audition on saturday morning. He is currently doing casting for his film. Titled, "Brothers", it is going to be good. *winks* I was damm tired. But I still went for a try. *grins*

18 to 21, Poly Forum 2006! Yes. Finally after months of meetings and plannings, the actual forum had arrived. Everything was great fun. All the 5 Sub Theme had wonderful ideas and plans to be carry forward. The D&D night was cool. I am sure everyone had fun. Caleb played Hard Gay, cameras flashed like the whole of Hollywood was there, Sub Theme 1 and TP people taught the whole Forum, the TP Mass Dance and the"Yum-Seng" went non-stop. *grins* Next year, it is TP's turn to host this event. I am sure it will be the best ever! :D

On the 19, "Becoming Royston" had seen it world premiere at The Cathay! It was so cool! Everything on the screen was so big! "Argh!" *grins* And the people from Singapore Dreaming was there! Thank you everyone for supporting! If not, we would not had gone so far. And yes. Tommy! So sad that you could not make it due to N.S. Do not worry. There will be more chances in the future! *winks*

On the 22, my Leave of Absence to go for the Diving Course was approved! So happy! 1 barrier down, 4 more to go! :)

23 to 24, I was playing Magic! So fun! I really enjoy every moment of it! Our whole team was there. I stay at Wen Han's, which was something that I have not being doing for the past 1 year! So sad. His place is renovated and he changed room. I really missed a lot. I want to play for life. I want to turn Pro. It is going to be a long and hard journey...

Despite all the many many things that happened, I was quite fortunate that I realise that I had been quite ignorant and bad towards my family, especially my brother. He try very hard to be like me or even excel over me. But like what I had told people a lot of times, "Everyone is different, everyone is meant for different things." Now he always keep to himself. Play WOW and watch TV at home. Recently he had a stomach problem. He was rolling around on bed. And he keep saying that, after a while it will get better. I realise I really do not know what was happening at home or what he had been doing for a long long time... This is so sad... I am going to make it up to him. I cannot promise everything is going to be perfect straight away, but I will try...

Going home. There is this guy behind me who is screaming at his brother/sister, over the phone... How ironic.

September 8th, 2006.

11.59pm

Finally sat down to blog...

Just completed SSC. Quite refreshing! "Long time did not go back already lor..." *grins* Had fun and lost my voice... And it is really satisfying to see the cadets pass out. Going for NCC Day Dinner tomorrow.

Went to watch "Singapore Dreaming" with Abby. I think it is really a powerful film. Very localised. Some comical moments, some heart-wrenching moments, some unexpected moments and some moment of truth. Touched by the film. Really nice to see local films done so nicely. Cool! *winks* And they keep promoting "Liang Teh!" "Steady lor! Thanks Eh!"*grins*

There will be a screening of the 30mins, short film version of "Becoming Royston"! It will be held at The Cathay on the 19th of September! 5.30pm! Please check out the box office soon. Or you can order your tickets with me! *winks*

Anyway, quite tired. :)

Good Night! Remember to check out "Becoming Royston" and "Singapore Dreaming".

September 3rd, 2006.

11.59pm

No. This blog is not defunct. *winks*

Had quite a weekend. Just went to HQ NCC for a briefing for the upcoming Senior Special Course, SSC. Yes, I will be away to camp, from 6 to 8 September. After which, I went to Randy's for a photo shoot. It was quite cool. Practically went through Randy's wardrobe. Seen some of the photos. Everyone look so nice! *grins*

Yesterday went to CSC's event at Siglap CC. Then went to Ngee Ann Polytechnic for Poly Forum meeting. Had to rush down to Stamford Court for a beverage survey. Followed up by a meet up with Angel and Wei Qi. Had quite a catch up. Talked quite a bit. Abby came and join us. Walked around and sat down at the Esplanade Theater-By-The-Bay area and caught EIC in action. They were quite good. But we were all quite tired, so we left after the 5th song. Abby was working for the whole day and I slept only for like 3 hours before starting my day. Cause I went to Sentosa to accompany my Spydra freshies to party, for celebration of Siyun's birthday.

Met Sylvia and Flannery for supper yesterday. Long time since we came out together. So nice. Talked a lot. Caught up with a lot of things. Flannery is going to have his POP this coming wednesday. And Sylvia is going to run for elections for her hall in NTU. Cool right? *grins*

Have you visited BR website yet? Please visit it if you have not. It had a major makeover. *grins* We even have wallpaper download now! Cool right? *winks* I have people telling me that they are seeing me on Macdonald's TV screens. And there are some SMSes saying that they like BR a lot. They would like to see it in on screens soon. Thanks for all the support! Glad you people out there like it.

Having holidays now. Thought I would be quite free (which I was, initially). But now my schedule is like filling up by the day.

Long time since I had posted a Picture of the Day. Today's Picture is so cute right? My baby niece! *grins*

Good Night Singapore!

August 21th, 2006.

1.00am

Just came back from National Day Rally. I heard I was captured on TV. *grins* Some parts of the speech was quite insightful. I thought I would have a hard time to stay awake. But everything was ok. All the topics that PM Lee touched on was more on the intangible matters, like the Singapore Heartware. Had a couple of chats with a few ministers and MPs. Most of the ministers' and MPs' first question was, "What do you think of the Rally?" or "Which topic of PM Lee's speech, touched you the most?" Quite standard. *grins*

Went to attend the International Chess: Inter-School Championships. It was held at Ngee Ann Secondary. It was quite a sight. Today was the primary school finals. There are over 180 teams! :o Cool! I want to join!

I need to shout out a regret! *sobs* Went out on Saturday. Was walking around Bugis Street. Walked past the shop which I saw the very nice "San Guo" Chinese Chess Set. They were closing down. Doing stock check. I saw a box label "Figurine Chinese Chess" in chinese. I should had asked them for it! I should had bought it. The first time I did not want to buy was because it was very expensive. I could have got discount cause they are closing down. *sobs*

Anyway going to work out tomorrow. Everyone is telling I am fat. *growls*sad*

Good Night Singapore!

August 15th, 2006.

3.13am

Just finished bathing. Watching TV. The past few days was very packed. My SIP ended on last friday. Starting to miss everyone already. :( BR concluded the shoots over the weekend. "It is a WRAP!" Glad everything is completed, but quite sad cause I am also starting to miss the whole production and everyone in BR too.

Anyway for today, everything was very packed. First, I woke up late. And I rushed to by cards for the office people. Quite upset this morning. Cause everything is back to normal. I got tens of calls and tonnes of SMSes the whole time. :( However, I did got to office alive. :p So happy to see everyone again. :) Ivan and Christopher did my appraisal with me, and I am actually quite happy with it. :) Both of them were very frank with me and I am glad that I got very good feedback from them. :)

Got to school. Went to see Lawrenz first. Sort out some stuff. Went to Sports Club AGM. SU forget to wear red. Oops. *grins* After which, we had a very long meeting to decide what projects to do and who to do. It took 4 hours. :( Not quite productive. But it was a must.

A call out to all!

BR is currently having a SMS contest out on atlife.sg. The details can be viewed at all Macs plasma screens! Cool right? *grins* The topic of the contest is to tell us what is your childhood ambition. "What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?" SMS to 78800. Keyword (DREAM) space (your name) space (your ambition & reasons). In not more than 120 characters. A Ipod Nano awaiting you each week! Still have 9 Ipods left! What are you waiting for?! Hurry Up!

Got to get some rest. This week got to rush a lot things. Finalising SU's AWP. Got to hand in SIP Report. Need to write out my Presidential Speech for AGM. etc.

Good Night Singapore. Got to get some sleep. *winks*

August 10th, 2006.

SIP Day 79:

11.59pm

Went to supper with most of the RC chairmen, Ivan, Christopher and Hadijah. At "Chicken Club." The usual. Not bad. 1 more day to the end of SIP. Going to get some farewell gifts for them . Thinking of what to get. *wonders*

Hadijah and me had so much just now! While waiting for all the people to arrive, we all stayed in the car. And all the ways that they parked their car and did not see us as they walk past was so funny! Ivan even parked beside us. So funny! *grins*

The National Day Observance Ceremony was quite a success. Verlyn was so quite good as an emcee. Quite a surprise! *grins* Everything else was alright. And I did the flag-raising! The cake was 10kg. It actually tasted nice! *grins* A lot of big cakes do not actually taste nice.

Having a very packed weekend coming up. Tomorrow, going to work in the morning. Going school during lunch to meet raymond. Go back to work and after work rush back to school to attend AGMs. Straight after that got to SU's subcomm training camp. This is Glenda's and Yee Ping's maiden project. *grins* Saturday morning got to leave for BR filming and rush back to give a talk to the subcomms. Sunday will have BR filming! It will be at the Shooting Gallery. Cool. Guess who are going to be there? *wonders* Not going to tell you! *grins*

Anyway for all those that still do not know, the 5th and last webisode up. So please do tune in to www.becomingroyston.com .

How I wish I can drive. At least i do not need to wait for transportation. You know how it is that when you are waiting for a certain bus but it does not come. Yes. It is very frustrating.

Good Night Singapore! Got to get some much needed rest. *wonders* And Picture of the Day is the nice 10kg cake that Christopher got from Prima Deli. With it is Hadijah and Jasmine (TECO new ACM). :)

August 8th, 2006.

SIP Day 77:

11.59pm

I am going to miss my days in TECO...

Actually had thought of quite a lot of things to write. But I think I have a Writer's Block now.

Anyway some updates!

NDD was quite a success. I would like to express my thanks to all the hard work that everyone had done. It was a challenge to complete such a big event. Glad I was up to the test.

Straight after the NDD, I went straight to school for TPSU Work Plan Retreat. We spend the whole night sharing ghost stories. And almost everyone was freaked out! *grins* The whole retreat was quite enriching and productive. My mummy helped to delivered 13-person worth of Macs to TP for us. We all felt kind of bad but I am so touched. I love you Mum! :) We had steam boat to wrap everything up. Cool right? *grins* Everyone had fun! It was a great bonding session. :)

Yesterday I resumed BR filming! Cool. But it was the sleepy scene! Nope! I will not disclose any information! *grins* Having a couple more days of shoots. Recently there are a couple of friends from IMD approached me to go for audition for their Project Pilot casting. Do not know if I am able to go for any. Kind of packed nowadays. Anyway webisode 5 is up! And from next week onwards, teaser trailers from BR will be out on Macdonalds Plasma TVs! Participate in the contest and stand to win a IPod Nano every week! There are even going to be wallpaper and ringtones from BR, to be downloaded!

To end everything off, National Day is coming. I do not know why. I kind of like Singapore. I think it is a great country. *wonders* I could not bare the thought of leaving here for good.

So... Good Night Singapore! I love you... *grins* :)

August 3rd, 2006.

SIP Day 74:

11.59pm

Had my first experience with a blood donation! The lime green bandage is so cool! So happy! Everytime there is a blood donation drive in TP, it always had overwhelming response!

I gave away my only NDP ticket to Christopher today. He worked so hard for NDD and had been very nice and lenient with me. Furthermore, he is intending to give his parents to watch the NDP. He is a very filial guy. I like that.

Today I am feeling much better. Kind of. I think my mood improved because I kind of gave instead of received. I like that kind of feeling. If someone can be happy because of something I had done, I am happy. People around me, parents, friends, buddies, mentors, and more, had always said that I always helped people even at my own expanse. I say yes to everyone and try to fit everything to my timetable. I try to help everyone but this will cost everyone to just have a little of what they expect of me. This will shortchange everyone who believed and had faith in me.

I will dwell on this. I think there are some things which I need to change... *wonders*

Good Night Singapore!

August 1st, 2006.

SIP Day 72:

11.47pm

Just feel that my life is in a mess right now.

To everyone out there, sorry if I was ever short-tempered and harsh on you.

Cannot remember any messier time of my life. Really feeling the drawback of having too many events or things in my life. Nearly could not hold back my emotions today. Nearly. But I held. Barely. If I had not, I do not think I would have finish my day.

Went for dinner after work today. No appetite and mood to eat, but had some gastric pains, so had to go and grab some food. I thought I would be of a older age to be sitting at a kopitiam and drinking teh all alone. Kind of sad. Felt like a lonely uncle. Kind of like the feeling which I had while watching Roystan Tan's "Sons". But in the short 30 minutes that I had alone while sitting there, I met 3 friends and had a lot of SMSes. "Sigh"

Really wish I could have 2 weeks off and get out of Singapore, to somewhere where no one knows that I am Alvin Neo. Africa sounds good. Sometimes animals are better creatures than humans are.

Thank you everyone for showing all your concerns. I am just going through a phase of growing up.

To end off, just want to share some quotes.

1) "You are what you are, because of the people around you."

2) "Life is a journey, enjoy it."

3) "Destination in life is important, process to get there even more so."

4) "With Great Powers, comes Great Responsibilities"

Changed my blog. Hope you all like it. Good Night Singapore and wish everyone to be free of worries.

July 30th, 2006.

SIP Day 70:

11.15pm

A couple of things happened for the past few days. Had quite a lot of meetings, work, leadership training camp, BR screening party at Nic's etc.

Went for bowling today. There was a CSC event just now.

LTC was fun. The process allow me to have some rediscovery why I had decided to run. Kind of rekindled. *wonders* Did dragon boating. Now my whole back and thighs are aching. After the bowling, my arms are also aching now. *sad* We even did field cooking! Cool. Can see the picture. It is when we are more or less done eating. *grins*

Too caught up with people chatting with me on MSN...

Went for the BR screening party yesterday. Got lost while en route there. So silly. Been there a couple of times before, still so blur. *grins* Was quite cool. Very crowded. Met up with a lot of people. Had fun. Saw my plushie. "Argh!" So freaky. *shivers* Can see my picture!

Helped out in packing of goodie bag for NDD. Did 2000 bags in 3 hours. According to the "old birds", we are very fast. *grins*

Thank you everyone for your concern. I am getting better if not yet recover. Sook! Very sorry. Could not turn up for your birthday dinner. Make it up to you next time ba.

Good Night Singapore.

July 24th, 2006.

SIP Day 65:

11.59pm

Not feeling very good. Lots of things on my mind. Met Ah Boi today. Had a talk with each other. I really need a rest...

Anyway BR is going very well. Going to have quite a number of screening coming up. Quite cool. It is one of the few happy things that I have nowadays. And happy things are getting lesser and lesser...

Cannot seem to do the things that really matters. A lot of work to be done...

16 more days to the end of my SIP...

Really need a rest... and maybe a hug... from anyone...

Going to get some more needed physical rest...

Good Night everyone...

July 17th, 2006.

SIP Day 59:

11.59pm

Today was a very busy day. Had 2 meetings today. NDD is more or less settled. Getting busy with the Blog Project. Was busy with SU for the better part of the day. And PF too. This week is a very packed week. Have 8 meetings scheduled for this week and for now, next week already schedule 3, Leadership Training Camp and more coming! *sigh*

I agree that my SIP is very exciting. But I am starting to feel I cannot breathe. Too many things to do, too little time. But it was my choice. I got to live with it. *bitter laugh*grins*

Anyway, last Sunday, had the EPG day. Emcee-ed for the event. The weather was a killer. So damm hot! *grins* There was a mock bomb blast. Quite cool. The event was all over the papers. Straight after the event, rushed all the way to Kallang for a family dinner. Was a bit late. Saw my baby niece! So cute!!! *grins widely* I love babies! How I wish I have my own kids. *wonders*grins*

Had 2 meeting on Saturday. The ExCo in the meeting. And the new ExCo in the afternoon. The attendance for the old ExCo was surprising. It was better than expected. *grins* There 13th seat and the internal voting was settled. From now on there are a lot things to be done. For now, tentatively, the whole of August is filled up. So watch out for Students' Union event soon!

Yes! Thank you Ah Guang! I know you helped me a lot. Thanks! *huGs* "Haha!"

Picture of the Day is of a candid shot of my baby niece! So cute right?! *grins widely*

Good Night Singapore! *waves*

July 14th, 2006.

SIP Day 57:

11.59pm

Went shopping today! So happy! Got a blazer and a top! *grins* Still looking for a decent bag and a pair of nice looking shoes. *winks*

Having 2 meetings soon. Tomorrow going to have my hair trimmed. Going to resume filming soon. *grins* Could not wait. "Haha!"

Paid back a day for work. Left 3 more days to clear. *grins*

Good Night Singapore! So happy today. *grins* Picture of the Day is the venue of the NDD. At Chongzheng Yumin Primary School.